i think i sabotage all of my relationships... not on purpose.. i think it just happens because i know exactly what i want.. or atleast who i want.. not my last one though.. i can't be blamed for him cheating on me.. it's guys like him that make me not want to try.. i want to be happy, i just don't think it's possible... i always find an excuse not ( Read more... )

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

no matter what, i always do everything wrong.. even when i think i'm finally doing something right, it just isn't good enough.. i wish he would have just left me alone

Why is it that when people are happy they have nothing to say? but the second they are unhappy the whole world has to know about it.. i think it's really sad that people have to ask you how your life is going to find out your life is perfect.. but all they have to do is go on myspace to find out your life sucks.. maybe because when someone is happy ( Read more... )

So it's been over a year since i've written in this bitch... and i'm in the exact same place i was in a year ago... i haven't changed at all in the past year.. it's kind of depressing... i still don't know who i am.. i thought i knew but once i looked deeper i found nothing.. i'm an empty shell of who i used to be.. i don't remember who i used to ( Read more... )

 how am i supposed to get over him if he won't stop talking to me..if you don't want me leave me alone

i think i have a stamp on my forehead that says "lie to me." i don't know cuz everytime i look in the mirror there's nothing there. or maybe it's a sign on my back that says "please rip out my heart throw it on the ground and stomp on it." i mean just when i'm about to give up on men, i meet someone and they seem so great and different from the ( Read more... )

guys suck! maybe i should join a convent

so i just downloaded that paris hilton song cuz i was bored and severely needed something to mock... there just aren't enough words in the english language to describe how horrible it was... it was really painful to listen to

so the job hunt is over... i finally got a job... yay me