we went out to eat, even though we really dont have the money, and mom started talking to the lady behind us and she told me i looked like sally feilds...she said i had her smile ( Read more... )

im very lonely right now.

with nothing to do but school work. but at leats i am learning to type right.

i havent done anything  in the way of expressions in a long time. i used to not be able to go a day without sketching but now i have nothing  no insporation no  will

maby i dont need it anymore.  but i want to draw, but i have no inspiration. ( Read more... )

everyone i know is going through some crazy amount of stress and crasy life curcumstances. even myself. and my question is are these the best years of our lives?

every time something happens that is so important,and so horrible,  in the morning it is over, and worthless and semes to have no effect on the rest of my life.

i dont know

sleep...

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i dont feel like seriously updateing. i just want to escape. im so beyond stressed.

i have had 3 hours of sleep. i almost missed my flight this morning. i was so afraid i was going to miss it i started throwing up in my mouth a little. i was the last one to board. thank you Jesus. but i didnt get to say goodbye to grammy.

shelby is at the hospital ( Read more... )

so peter wants me to come to washington state to see him next summer

when he said it i almost cried because this is what i have wanted most, my entire life, him to want me to love me to care

and i will go

even though he has shown up unexpectedly before and i thought "this is it. he does love me. now he will be my daddy!" but every  time after ( Read more... )

im at my sisters  college house
its pretty cool
the flight was ok but it was a small plane
oh well

i miss steven. alot.
i cant wait until we can be together everyday
<3

manda and amy and i are going to the beach
amy lives with amanda

its so cool here im wearing a jacket

i love mass. so much ( Read more... )

hmmmmm...

where to start... how about with this...

Steven gave me a promise ring. He wants to get married when i turn 18 but i think maby

maby thats too young?

i love him so much., though sometimes his devotion scares me and his gentleness suprises me.

we were makeing out in his pool today and it was sexy.

so camps at work are over so im back ( Read more... )

your embarassing me your embarassing you so goodnight goodnight--Hott Hott Heat

im about to be working 8 hours a day 6 days a week

i can hardly stand 9 hours one day

im not going to make it through this mississippi summer...

im talking to steven and typing at the same time- one handed so its very slow

i watched a movie with my sister yesterday and ( Read more... )

im takeing my permit test tomorrow

it will be the easyest test ive ever taken

stay off the sidewalks

i talked to steven today

it was so good to hear his voice

so this is what its like to be in love

i always wondered what it would be like

two of the horses at the barn were struck by lightning saterday

it was so sudden they were just gone

i am very ( Read more... )

i havent talked to steven in about 5 days.

i miss him

i miss my friends too.

nothing is going on.

nothing is new and im confined to the inventions of my mind-

except my srange dreams last night. not nightmares like normal

just weird

the kind i cant remember when i wake up.

the kind i have deja-vu about later in the week

im enbarcking on a ( Read more... )