sally feilds?
we went out to eat, even though we really dont have the money, and mom started talking to the lady behind us and she told me i looked like sally feilds...she said i had her smile.
i shouldnt smile so much.
i want to talk to steven soooooo bad right now, but im grounded from the phone because i stayrd up too late talking to him last night. 10:30. yeah.
i miss him. sometimes i miss him so much that it physically hurts. i just want to be with him. he makes everything ok, everywhere is safe, when im with him i dont worry about stupid stuff and get upset. its really indescribable, the extent of my peace when im with him, but i know that its where i want to be for the rest of my life, as soon as possible. and he deserves better than me, so much better, he knows everything and he still loves me, he tells me im perfect, and i think he beleives it. im afraid that one day hell realize im not,that ill dissapoint him and itll be over. sometimes it doesnt even seem real, that our relationship could ever exist in reality, i mean thinkig about my moms 3 marraiges peters 4 or 5, his dad was married before, its too good to be true. but it is.
i think too much
if i belonged to a berber family in morrocco id be married now to a man in his thirties that id never even speek to before our wedding.
thank you God*
i just want to be with steven
i shouldnt smile so much.
i want to talk to steven soooooo bad right now, but im grounded from the phone because i stayrd up too late talking to him last night. 10:30. yeah.
i miss him. sometimes i miss him so much that it physically hurts. i just want to be with him. he makes everything ok, everywhere is safe, when im with him i dont worry about stupid stuff and get upset. its really indescribable, the extent of my peace when im with him, but i know that its where i want to be for the rest of my life, as soon as possible. and he deserves better than me, so much better, he knows everything and he still loves me, he tells me im perfect, and i think he beleives it. im afraid that one day hell realize im not,that ill dissapoint him and itll be over. sometimes it doesnt even seem real, that our relationship could ever exist in reality, i mean thinkig about my moms 3 marraiges peters 4 or 5, his dad was married before, its too good to be true. but it is.
i think too much
if i belonged to a berber family in morrocco id be married now to a man in his thirties that id never even speek to before our wedding.
thank you God*
i just want to be with steven