So much uncertainty at this point and time ( Read more... )

My father was alive and well 2 years ago...seemed like all was well and would go on like that for much longer. The last few times I was home he and I went to get rocks for a shed he and my bro NC built. As I drove with him into bear canyon just north of canyonday he off loaded all the ills of the household, drama and midway through he paused and ( Read more... )

Yesterday I was working hard to keep the fires stoke and steam full speed ahead.....extra money....extra time to keep my mind from tearing itself apart when suddenly it all came to a screeching halt. I didnt know what to do...who to talk to....nor could I find anyone. So I collected my thoughts and found a quite spot in the shop and said a prayer ( Read more... )

I dont know how to process all that is happening....Its all been on the wall and I'm just seeing it....maybe there is something that cant be admitted to.....or the sad reality of her just being gone is all there is. I fear its the third and thats the way its gonna be......I hope and pray its not but there is a major part of me that feels that way, ( Read more... )

Today started out a little rough....got worse....then stewed on my side even worse. Finally it blew over and Im glad it did.
Aside from this nonsense I have been thinking a lot...shit i gotta finish this later.

As a city grows and dies so do the memories, places wandered, street corners altered forever....How can it be the same? I remember the city of PHX much different as a child, the mega mall was in it's infancy, strip malls still had local truly on lock ( Read more... )

I sense the hurt in your soul, I know you wanted to stay and be there to see all those beautiful things come to, reality....The reality is I can never see life the way you do, I want to but a part of me died forever somewhere between the last throws of my young life and that last push into adulthood. Can I live with out you?? I can but your memory ( Read more... )

I can hear your laughter, loud and booming. I see your picture and this gap in my soul only widens......why cant you be here, not for me, not for us but for my kids. I see your words in print "All those qualities of a leader...." my eyes still burn and tear up as i read that. Pop I miss you ( Read more... )

It has been a long time since I have been here....alot has happened since the last visit. The major being the death of my father. He had a rough drawn out battle with cancer. I can still see his face with that sickness slowly creeping over him, he was never one to let illness ruin his day so to see all the complications play out was very painful. I ( Read more... )

I fear destroyed a good thing, im sincere please dont go. Im skerd but ima have to keep moving, i found you please dont go. Im gonna hurt for while, im sincere please dont go. You hold me down but over a bad convo i suddenly become worthless, I feel in a small part of me that i might still be where its at....i pray that i am ( Read more... )