I value my  life.

Do I really? Do I truely value my life? Do I really value my friend's lives?  This weekend was intense, to say the least, and Im really glad that I was able to experience with some of the most important people in my life.  At the TALIT weekend, this speaker, named Scott Fried, brought up some extremely tough issues that forced ( Read more... )

Stop making my smile.

I can't stand people who make me smile.

I also can't stand people that make me laugh.

Gosh, and you're so incredinbly ugly!  What was I thinking?!

I can't take my mind off of you.

Light will guide you home

and ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you..

I miss dancing.

I miss camp.

I like being hugged.

I really don't want to start school soon.

Im scared of applying to college..

I feel very disconnected with all of my school friends.

Actually, I feel disconnected from a lot of my friends in general.

I need to get over him.

My tummy hurts.

I want a car.

I cant take my mind off of someone.

shit.

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Im back.  woot?  Yah, I have currently returned from CIT 2005.  Amazing.  Life altering. You know how it goes.  I come back every summer with a new outlook on life and a new sense of maturity that could not have been found any place else.  Am i glad to be back? I thought I would be, but as I suspected, everyone here is still the dam same and doing ( Read more... )

I'm not sure what it was about this weekend, but I came to a few important realizations about myself:

1.  I do not NEED a boyfriend.  I might want one, but I dont have the need to be dependent upon one.  I think this is a very important concept that I found out about myself.  I am perfectly emotionally stable enough to exist without a boyfriend.  ( Read more... )

I am 17..as of yesterday that is.

Thanks to all my friends who called or left me messages.  Made me feel loved and I appreciate it since this week is kinda sucky because of APs and finals and bla...yuck.

Im really excited to get APs and SAT IIs over with.  They just hurt my brain more than anything.

Excited for prom...even though Michael hasn't ( Read more... )

to one: kiss my ass

to another: weeee

to life: im in a good mood :) lets try and keep it that way yes?

I havent started freaking out about APs yet...im sure it will kick in this weekend when i realize i know NOTHING about apush....yuck.  oh well.

I'm sorry ok? I'm sorry for being selfish.  For wanting to relax.  For wanting to smile.  I'm sorry for forgetting about everything for a few hours.  I'm fucking sorry.  I dont know what the hell I'm doing wrong.   I really don't.  I was having a good day.  I was in a good mood.  My dad has to go and pretend to take charge of my life, and ruin it ( Read more... )

I am constantly feeling pressure from everyone aroudn me to live up to their expectations.  I have to always look good, be happy, seem like life is dandy, do this, do that, be smart, but dont show it off, participate but dont get too invovled.  Its really really stressing me out, and all i want to do in the mornings, is wake up, roll out of bed, ( Read more... )

Wow.

If you're name is Alex Garabedian or Eden Banarie and you see this before I speak to you, we need to speak.  Trust me, you want to hear this.