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I am constantly feeling pressure from everyone aroudn me to live up to their expectations. I have to always look good, be happy, seem like life is dandy, do this, do that, be smart, but dont show it off, participate but dont get too invovled. Its really really stressing me out, and all i want to do in the mornings, is wake up, roll out of bed, throw mny hair up, and leave. Just like summer. And yet, during the summer, Im not pressured to do anything. Things just arent how i want them right now. Ive barely spoken to my best friend in weeks, I feel emotinally unstable. Just uch its just frustarting. Dont read this and think that Im some depressed teen, cuz its not like that. Im just frustrated with how i dont have time to chnage the things that are wrong.
You. You make me care too much. You make me think that YOU care. Ive never had such conflicting feelings towards someone. Its rediculous. Dont toy with my feelings. The sad part is, you dont even know what you're doing.
I need camp. I need to be able to lay on the bima on the field and just stare up at the trees and not have to say anything. I want to be able to cry and for someone to come and hug me and not ask why, but just understand that it needs to happen. I need to be able to run around naked and not care. I need my friends. Actually, I just need to get away from everyone here.
I want to go to prom.
I want someone to call when I'm having a bad day.
Everything keeps changing, and I can't seem to keep up with it.
I'd do anything just to fall asleep with you..