Apollo had another episode yesterday where he went and hid as if he was getting close to death. We were having a somewhat productive afternoon. I'd brought some art/pictures up from the basement and we rearranged and hung a few things that have sat down there since we moved in. As I was walking back and forth I happened to notice Neelix sitting on ( Read more... )

First day back to work since last Thursday. Though I still feel like the holiday mentality is going to carry through to Friday, with next week being like the "official" start of work in 2024. I should have done my time last week, but I am an idiot. Now I need to focus on that this morning. I had originally told the Meat Packer I'd be there today, ( Read more... )

Things seem okay, then they are not. Apollo's demeanor seemed to be more normal in the afternoon yesterday. But, come dinner time last night he had issues walking into the kitchen again. It's as if his back legs are weak or giving out. Loki displayed similar behavior shortly before his end ( Read more... )

It's funny how pain and hurt causes other pain and hurt to come to the surface. Not really anything specific necessarily, just a general welling up of emotions ( Read more... )

Apollo really seemed to be getting back to himself, though definitely slower and slightly unsure in his movements. But, his eyes showed more of his old self yesterday. I even slept in bed instead of on the floor and he joined us, sleeping between my legs part of the evening ( Read more... )

Apollo's condition seemed to slightly improve in the afternoon yesterday. He actually was able to go into the kitchen without having to rest halfway there. He went to his "treat position" where he waits by the cabinets for me to give them treats, a position he usually takes after breakfast or dinner or anytime I come in from being gone. He ate the ( Read more... )

Apollo has started to decline rapidly. We are now thinking he may have been the one that peed on the bed accidentally, and not Lucille ( Read more... )

I am still very much in the mood for cemeteries and gravestones. I actually learned yesterday what the difference between a cemetery and a graveyard is. A cemetery is any large burial ground whereas a graveyard is a burial ground next to a church. Who knew? I guess maybe I should have ( Read more... )

It's gray and pouring rain out. Thank the maker. The past week has been so unbearably warm for this time of year. I think the angle of the sun in the sky just had a way of making the sunlight harsher than in summer ( Read more... )

It was a long 36 hours, from Monday going to the wake until the afternoon yesterday with the post-funeral luncheon. Literal hours of driving. Hours of socializing. Dealing with emotions concerning death, the purpose of life, the role of family. Reflection on the state of my life and my relationships with other people. Universal questions about what ( Read more... )