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She’s cold. Her head hurts. She’s hungry. Really hungry.
But Vicki does her best to push those thoughts aside as she runs. The perks, as Damon called them, weren’t so bad. Maybe it would only get better, though she imagines it would be the latter. The brisk air of the night keeps her hair behind her as she does her best to navigate at such a speed ( Read more... )
But Vicki does her best to push those thoughts aside as she runs. The perks, as Damon called them, weren’t so bad. Maybe it would only get better, though she imagines it would be the latter. The brisk air of the night keeps her hair behind her as she does her best to navigate at such a speed ( Read more... )
He stares at her and then glances down at the floor before looking up at her again.
"What? Vicki, you don't know-- You don't know what happened. That's not it at all," he says sa he looks at her. "I've always cared about you. You know that. That's-- It's not something you just get tired of ( ... )
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So she runs at him. Stopping directly in front of him. Hoping to emphasize her point - that she doesn't want to be here right now.
She doesn't want to deal with the hurt and pain this topic is bring. She was never confrontational when it came to her emotions, didn't he know that?
"You should. You forgot, you had nothing to worry about, right?" Her eyes change in her anger; they go black and the veins below them become visible. It's a form she's hardly familiar with, but she doesn't make much of an effort to change it back.
Why should she?
"You don't know anything I'm going through. You can't imagine and you can't know and you can't feel it. I didn't want any of this - I wanted to be normal." Or almost normal, as normal as she could get, but she doesn't point that out. "I'm thinking I want to get out of here ( ... )
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Even when she runs at him, Jeremy remains exactly where he had been. He may flinch in surprise but he doesn't move and he doesn't look away from her face even when her familiar eyes because a color-- a look that he doesn't recognize at all.
His throat tightens, painfully, and he's thinking of how it should have been stopped way back then. Before she ever could have been turned at all. He hates Damon for a lot of reasons, that may top them all even the fact that Damon killed him once.
"I didn't forget about you. He made me forget what happened. I was there when you were killed. When he killed you. He made me forget that happened so I still remembered you. You were just missing as far as I knew," Jeremy says quietly, and he doesn't back down from her. He doesn't backpedal or try to ( ... )
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There is no part of him that is afraid of it happening again.
He doesn't want to die, but he knows what it's like at this point. Two times, it's just something that he's used to, and he has the ring on so he would come back if it was by her hands, but he knows she doesn't want to kill him.
She doesn't want to hurt him either even if she wants to run too.
It's always how she's handled her emotions, running from them in one way or another.
He knows she can't really control it right now, and he couldn't-- he could never be afraid of her. Jeremy knows her too well for that, and it's just impossible for him. He has seen her in all different states.
Jeremy swallows, folding his arms across his chest like it will somehow stop the way that he feels. Like something heavy is ( ... )
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But she still wants him here.
Physically. By her side to help her through it.
She doesn't have Matt to fall back on. She doesn't have Tyler who she's still convinced pretended to care. She doesn't have anyone.
Anyone but Jeremy and Damon from her knowledge. And she knows better than to trust the latter of the two.
She mimics his gesture with her arms and waits until he's finished. She wants to argue it somehow, to say there's still nothing he can do for her and that she still loves him, but she doesn't. His last sentence - she knows it's true. She knows him, or at the time she knew him. She knew how much he cared and would do anything for her, and maybe that part of him hasn't changed ( ... )
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One he almost did by choice too. That was after Vicki died, after Anna died too. He had vampire blood in him, and he tried to kill himself so he could be a vampire and shut off all of his emotions.
The times that he has died, he... didn't die for very long.
It was five minutes maybe the one time. The other time, it was more like twenty or thirty minutes, but it wasn't long enough for anyone to move on in either case.
He was brought back both times ( ... )
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Her moods - they're weird. Everything's weird.
She frowns at his expression, but otherwise gives it no acknowledgement. She isn't sure she wants to; if he wants her to. She doesn't know what he wants or expects out of helping her, given he wants anything at all.
Maybe he'd help her and then leave. It'd certainly be better than figuring out if there was anything left between them, right?
"Yeah...you would. You're stupid like that." All said with a smile, ducking her head a little to force him to meet her eyes. "Rest with me?" Hesitantly, she laces her fingers with his. His warmth, it gives her some reassurance.
That he really wants to stay.
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He doesn't know what they are at all. There's a part of him that feels like he would be cheating on Bonnie. There's another part of him that feels like he doesn't want to be with anyone in that way. They all die. Even Bonnie died. She was-- just fortunate to come back.
He has to start feeling like the common factor in all his relationships is him. They are all three-- they have all been so different, but they all died and he is the one factor that links the three of them together. He doesn't want it to happen again, not to her, not to anyone else ( ... )
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Mostly how she's making him feel.
How much she's confusing him, how much she's pressuring him -- everything. But when she closes her eyes, she does her best to let it all subside. Yeah, he was stupid for ever loving her, even if it was only in the past. She wasn't worth the love or the problems that came with it.
But she was glad at least he thought so.
A faint smile graces her lips as he finishes his sentence. And without really thinking, she whispers:
"Forever."
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Though it sounds like sleep will be coming for her soon.
He has a lot to think about.
His chest hurts trying to grapple with it all.
So he tries to push it all away for the time being, focus on the fact that it is good-- it is really good to have her alive. Even if he doesn't know what that means yet.
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