So today, yes, I'm still smiling. and after the week i've had dealing with parents and emotions and drugs and everything i am still smiling and don't think i can ever stop. love conquers all right? well i sure hope so, everyone is trying to break us up or make us fight over some stupid shit but it's not going to happen, every night i give him a ( Read more... )

so okay, it's been a while and i've changed amazingly, but the man i love has finally come around, he has proved to me over and over agin daily that he wants nothing more than a life with me. the other guy i was interested in has a great girlfriend and is happy. i havn't gotten a new vehicle yet but i don't meed to my now fiance is taking me to his ( Read more... )

so tonight was awesome, me and chad went riding again and just hung out until 3:30 am, i feel such a connection with him and yet i have no idea why, i haven't talked to carson (love) in like 50 hours and really don't care. i have finally realized that i don't need him, it's time for me to be with someone who is going to treat me well. but besides ( Read more... )

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq
• You must tell 5 people about this game.
• Chad is the one that you love.
• Carson is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about Jayme.
• Libby is the one who knows you very well.
• Meghan is your lucky star.
• Untitled is the song that matches with Chad.
• Don't Ya is the song for Carson.
• Cater 2 You is the song that ( Read more... )

so after spending most of the night with "other" i am losing my feelings for "love" so maybe i'm not wrong in this maybe i do deserve better than what i've had, i do love him and always will but i'm falling out of love with him if that is possible. but life is still spinning around me and i'm still breathing without him so it can't be that bad... ( Read more... )

so i'm really confused at this point. I am in love with one guy but have strong feelings for another. the one i love is very violent and constantly brings me down but i still love him, the other one is everything i've been looking for but i have heard that he is a player. i don't know what to do. whichever way i go i'm hurting someone i care about ( Read more... )