andy and I went and hung out with his friends tonight, friends that he hadn't seen in quite a long time...probably due to my incessive need for him to hang out with only me. However, I had the greatest time. It was probably the greatest night in a while. I actually was acting myself, which is weird...and everyone loved it. I bonded with strangers ( Read more... )

My mom is finally home from florida, which makes my house feel like a home again. thank god. The weather outside, makes me smile...a lot. Its already June. All of a sudden, the months and the seasons are flying by me right now, and I am finding it hard to even make the time to stop and look around. Lisa is gone, its been three days and I miss her ( Read more... )

Everyone is coming home, and tonight will be my first venture out of westborough, out of townsend, and back into the company of old friends. I don't know what to think about this. I haven't seen anyone is over a year, except for my close friends. I think I have changed a lot over the past year, and my ideas of partying and real friends have ( Read more... )

The weather is definitely helping my not-so-good mood. Things have been kind of stressful lately, but I am trying harder than ever to stick it out. I've just sacrificed so much, and now I am just so worried about losing it all. I have a great life, I don't know why I worry so much. But when you have so much good stuff going on, its so easy to lose ( Read more... )

I can't handle this. Everyone is moving away, and I am still doing the same routine and living in the same town. I'm starting to believe I am a burnout, which is not the case. What the hell? lisa is moving, andy is moving, everyone and their grand-daughter is moving. Soon I am going to be the only person here. I'm a little nervous. thats a lie. I'm ( Read more... )

the weather is really rocking the suburbs at this point and it fucking rocks. I couldn't be happier ( Read more... )

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I'm really quite tired of everyone badgering me about not hanging out. Its really lame. I know that they really don't care about hanging out with me. They just want me as a backup. Its just really tiring. When people say they want to hang out with me, they ditch my ass, and then when I actually make plans and stick to them, they harass me for being ( Read more... )

Today the forecast was mildly cloudy with severe snow....however that did not stop me from having an amazing time at stu's birthday party at andys. Looking back, this year has been way better than any of the past nineteen years. I am so happy. Its weird to be happy this much..I mean smiling all the time is rare. Its great. Stu rocks. Andy rocks. ( Read more... )

so my long awaited 20th birthday is over. thank god. it was a lot of fun, thanks to my friends that actually showed up for it. I was an emotional disaster that night. between crying and falling out of the shower, my body, mentally and physically is badly injured. However, thats my fault. I would like to give a shout out to andrew melnicki for ( Read more... )