44 more days until my 21st birthday.

school starts tomorrow, and although almost everyone and their mother is back at school already, I still feel like I need another vacation. Another semester of school, got to love it. I need to start thinking about transferring places asap. This is getting ridiculous. God, I am way to dependent. I need to get my shit together, and hit the road. I ( Read more... )

I wish this wasn't so hard. I wish that my head would stop letting in the remember whens. I know what I need to do, and then I'm completely confused. I can't keep letting this happen, I can't keep forgetting, and I can't stop loving. I need someone's hand to hold. I need a new life.

I will never regret.

I haven't updated in years or so it seems. I actually forgot I had live journal. Probably because I write for myself, and no one responds, which is ok seeing as though I have like five friends on it. I'm ok with it. I've been running around like crazy lately, trying to finish school work, hanging out with some good company, and trying to get my ( Read more... )

i miss lisa.

I am so tired of the drama. I am so tired of everyone thinking that I don't want to be their friend anymore, or that I don't have time for them. Its fucking crazy. I think it might actually be making me insane. I can't win. My friends mean the world to me, but i can't seem to say it to anyone who will listen. I think I need to get away, so then ( Read more... )

umm yeah, its 3:30 in the morning, lets not talk about it. what a crazy night. first off, andy, thank you for coming with me. I love you, and it would not have been the same without you. secondly, schmittstain, sarahlazzie, and jendy, thank you for the great time. I love you guys. It was so wonderful to get out of this decaying and depressed ( Read more... )

i don't know what to do for you. all I want to do is help. I love you ( Read more... )

This week has been anything but relaxing....more like utterly excruciating. The only thing that has been keeping me going all week is knowing that from friday to tuesday I will be going camping to celebrate the fourth of july and the sweet sound of vacation.