Not much has changed.

Still pretty much of the "put a bullet in my cranium" persuasion.

Amazing how different places, times, and people can affect the creation of the ego and psyche so directly.

*bang*

Over.

No life. Void, dull, day-to-day existence is the name of the game now ( Read more... )

I had a shocking revelation a few days ago that wasn't so shocking ( Read more... )

Yesterday at around six-thirty I smoked two bowls of Salvia Divinorum, tripping off into the third and blowing the bowl out. The best way to describe it would be in these IM convos ( Read more... )

I want the mountains to shake and spit fire to singe the lands, I want the seas to boil and skies to fall and destroy the citizen's subdivided sectors ( Read more... )

Feelin' much better now. On top of things even. It's surprising how much certain types of music can get your spirits up.

VIVE LA REVOLUTION!

The hours, days, and years are slipping through my fingers... I'm not alive any more. Everything retains a subjective quality, as if I'm standing on a peak staring down upon it from far, far away. I'm afraid of myself. Afraid of life, the life negater, the rejection of all the affirmations and acceptances that supposedly make life so enjoyable ( Read more... )

Wrote this at the bottom of my Geometry notes today: "It's almost as if I'm invisible, a silent viewer observing yet another glass screen. Watching these adolescent monkeys interact for one reason or another. To assert dominance, to remain accepted as part of the clan. Herd talk is quite comparable to a band of chimpanzees huddling together in ( Read more... )

It's simply amazing how you can be on the verge of a three day weekend and a moment later you have a few hours left until you awaken to the hurried pace of school... I could be doing so many more things with my time. Evaluating, improving, creating, honing myself as I usually do in my free time... Yet still I am forced to live my life a week at ( Read more... )

I am so sick ( Read more... )