i feel like a free woman, i got my liscence! finally. i only waited like an extra year. oh well, at least i have it now. my classes got all rearranged, im fucking out of my english class. i moved to another teacher, crowell. i heard shes kind of a hippy, so i doubt she could be all that bad. the only opening was 7th period english, and i think i ( Read more... )

there is nothing like watching a dark, ironic movie on thanksgiving. getting away from all the disturbance, me and rachel watched donnie darko, in the privacy of her parents bedroom. the protrayal of human existance, was purely mind blowing. i wish i could be that thoughtful. at times i think i have the ability to be that deep, but no one to ( Read more... )

its unbelieveable how one conversation can change everything. i have replayed it over and over in my head, its over. oh well. im going to say it was all fate, although i will never believe it. i hate when everyone says "theres more fish in the sea", they wont understand until they feel what ive felt. this all seems very familiar. oh thats right, ( Read more... )

the concert last night was fucking amazing. sanjay suprised me, laconic rocked. yours truly was a lot better than i thought as well. i mean yeah, everyone always talks about how good they are, i figured my expectation would be so high it wasnt possible for them to meet it, i was wrong. they met it. well im excited for darkness to hit

i wish i was as cool as him. he always has those witty and charming things to say, and im left here thoughtless. missing the moment is really getting old. the stars must be damned for me. whatever. im excited for this weekend. im supposed to hang out with him, lets see if that works out. im sick of stupid meaningless things, i want something that ( Read more... )

i have so many things to say but i have no effort to put them into a context where people can relate. i just wish that i could express myself with more thought, but at the moment im so confused. i ran into some people last night and it stirred up so many old memories, that i wish could of kept in the past. i hate feeling uncomfortable or unworthy. ( Read more... )

i went camping yesterday, we ended up coming home at 3 in the morning. the campground was overflowing with skunks and coyotes. i was so confused, my dog didnt bark or anything. great protection huh. my mom insisted on us taking an 8 mile hike, im tired. i must say, it was beautiful though. the leaves were changing color, almost neon. sedona truly ( Read more... )

today was one of the best days i have had in a while. things with my friends are chill, which is cool. i fell asleep right before niptuck came on last night. its all good, blake asked me to come over and watch it with him. he said he has it on t-vo or whatever its called. i was so happy when he asked me, im suprised i didnt jump or something stupid ( Read more... )

my mind has been all over the place lately. especially my emotions, completely up and down. i think the thing that im mostly pissed about was how my friends kept telling to be someone else around blake. they kept saying im not flirtacious enough, or whatever. i guess i was just looking for a friend to basically tell me to be myself, not to ( Read more... )

this weekend has felt like a lifetime, i swear. me and the girls went up to gilbert after work to chill at john's house. why he lives in gilbert and goes to asu boggles my mind. but that was cool, we played pool and what not. samiah and i hung out with kyle, finally. i miss that boy so much! and later that night joe came to see us, it wasnt as ( Read more... )