i never thought that this could be untrue
my mind has been all over the place lately. especially my emotions, completely up and down. i think the thing that im mostly pissed about was how my friends kept telling to be someone else around blake. they kept saying im not flirtacious enough, or whatever. i guess i was just looking for a friend to basically tell me to be myself, not to transform. i mean me and blake are friends so apparently being myself hasnt thrown me off too much. and in the end im still the girl that got to sit on his lap on the way home, yay. i think my mom read a poem i wrote, and it freaked her out. she said she just wanted me to stay home and "chill". when my mom uses the word "chill" nothing good can come of it, its a little too 21st century for her. plus, im never at my house anymore, she probally wants to make sure that im still alive. i was actually suprised when she talked to me. she was genuinely was caring, creepy, but nice. so there, thats all the shit that has been going on. i miss you jess, we will hang out, and go to the green. i think that date of ours is well overdue.