I'm alone and that sucks. I want someone here to love. but no one is. I want to be loved but no one gives a fuck. And saying this doesn't matter becasue no one reads this. And i'm pretty sure no one gives a fuck about my stupid problems. I don't even care about me.

youth ( Read more... )

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It snowing outside. I have alwasy said that i hated the snow. But when i saw it falling out side tonight, it made me feel right. Like everything was ok and that maybe i would be ok. I don't understand why something that i hated would bring me such peace.

Today sucked. My plans for new years fell through. I just got so sad. I never get to get out of my house and there is so much going on in my life. I just cant take much more. I feel like my body is being smushed by so much emotion that i'm going to be smashed through the fucking floor! I just want to get away forever. I don't want this life. I don' ( Read more... )

For the past few days i have felt ok. Not great but ok. And brie that poem you wrote really means a whole lot to me. I will always love you. And today was full of surpirses ( Read more... )

Today was what anyone would call a good day. But it was not good for me. I want so badly to feel good, to be happy, to be normal. But no matter what i tell myself or what i do............. nothing is good. I'm still stuck in this feeling. It won't go away. No matter what i do or what i tell myself. I'm alone. there is no one here and no one will be ( Read more... )

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Well its started again. In just a few hours my father has yet again brought both my sisters to tears. What am i supposed to do? I can't just sit by and watch? I love my father and my sisters but how do i stand up for my sisters or myself whithout hurting my father. It is hopeless. I whish there was someone who could or would take me away from this ( Read more... )

So my day. It wasn't that bad to begin with. Well i of course got no sleep but that i am use to. My dad was even happy today and that never happens. All the shit started this afternoon. I was suppose to go on a trip with my mom but i forgot that i promised my neighbor that i would feed their cat when they went awat this weekend. She already paid me ( Read more... )