gosh i miss him so much. i still think about him everyday but i keep telling myself to forget about him because i don't even have a chance with him. we'll never be together again and i just have to somehow make myself understand that ( Read more... )

sitting here in my bed tonight, i have come to the realization that i am completely incapable of getting anything accomplished. i make daily to do lists, however only 3 things on it actually get done. today it happened to be 4. tomorrow is the last day i have to pay my ticket and i still don't know how or where to go to pay it. i'm a little screwed ( Read more... )

life's just like one big fucking let down. one right after the other... its like you think you have everything under control. everything is fine. and i just wanted time to stop-- everything to stay how it was. everything was perfect.till now. i've never cried so much in my life. i actually feel sick to my stomach. and i can't stop either. everytime ( Read more... )

sometimes i wish i had been loser in high school. because then i know i wouldn't miss it so much next year. i have so many memories and so many friendships with the most awesome people and i know that i am just not ready to say good bye yet. because no matter what, after may 24 nothing is going to be the same. we will not be as close as we were. we ( Read more... )

ahh FUCK i can't do this anymore. everything thats good for me fucking disappears

i just want to be 5 years old again. im not ready for this i can't do this. i don't want to grow up i dont want to feel pain i just want to be numb from it all

damnit. FUCK.

that's all i can say.
fuckkkkkkkkkkk

so half the reason i'm writing now is because no one ever reads these anymore ( Read more... )

i hate my life.
i hate being grounded.
im so stupid.
what is the point of being grounded? there isnt one.
i hate my life.
i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it.
etc.

i hate it. kj]-aqfjanaanf]apz;lklknd

right now im just really confused ( Read more... )

have you ever had that feeling when you know you were really mean to someone you care about but you just cant come right out and apologize yet, but you cant concentrate or do anything else because you feel so bad? even though i didnt instigate it, i still said some mean things. i guess i just dont want to admit fault and be the first to say sorry. ( Read more... )

i was having a good day today. i was leaving work after my amazing massage, planning on going home and showering and getting ready to spend the day with katie. as i was leaving bell tower, i saw a homeless man with a sign asking for money. he was really cute (in an old man type of way) and the sign said "god bless" at the bottom. i looked for money ( Read more... )