a little snippet of Looking Back, from Ennis's POV

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One of my lovely and faithful readers, Juliathecat here at LJ and Juliacat at Dave Cullen, has very kindly offered her complete file of Looking Back to me to share with you guys. It's in a word doc and i opened it on my computer to check it out and OMG - 233,709 words. Wow. Of course, i think that's only about half as long as BFF, but still, big ( Read more... )

“You can ask me,” he says into the quiet. He’s pushed the mute button on the TV, so it’s just us, no distractions. “I know you want to.”

“Do you wanna tell me?” I ease myself onto the foot of his bed, careful not to jostle him much. My heart is racing. It’s been eleven years. I know he’s been faithful to me since then; I know he loves me. Whatever ( Read more... )

Being a guy, I was fully aware of what a powerful influence my dick had over me, and havin been around Ennis and his dick for so many years, I was pretty smart about how it worked too. We’d been together for a long time, and so it might be easy to think we’d be tired of each other or immune to each other or whatever, but that wasn’t the case with ( Read more... )

The waitress brings my food: a bloody T-bone and barely cooked eggs, with toast and hash browns. It’s not Waffle House, but it’s not bad and I try not to think of anything for a few minutes but eatin, stoppin the churnin in my stomach with something besides McDonalds. I think about our place back home and things I need to get done, but that’s a ( Read more... )

It’s 3 a.m. Our suite's on an upper floor in the hotel and I’ve got a good view of the city, all the lights still on at this time of morning. I can see the hospital, and I stare at it, wonder if Ennis is asleep. I want to text him but I don’t because if he’s sleeping I want to let him have that peace.

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I’m not gonna lie and make Dr. D. out to be a saint. He wasn’t. It took him a long time to get used to what we were to each other, and if Ennis had left college to go help me be an insurance salesman or cable repairman, I’m pretty sure he woulda had an even harder time getting used to it. But since I was the new starting quarterback for his ( Read more... )

I got picked up by the Atlanta Falcons. I signed a five year contract for 6.5 million dollars, which included a 1.5 million dollar signing bonus that I got right away. Even after taxes, when it was all said and done I still had a cool million sitting in our account, the one Ennis had put my name on three years before, back when I was working at the ( Read more... )

It took a while for things to get back to normal between us. Ennis was still angry, even after his revenge, and although I knew I had no right to be mad, I was still pretty pissy too. But at least Ennis was back in our bed, so we were on the slow, messy climb out of hell and back to normal. After three or four nights of nothing, I gave up on being ( Read more... )

My junior year, his sophomore one... Ennis was majoring in business with an emphasis on financial planning. I don’t know if he was purposefully getting ready to manage my money, or if he just thought that would be an interesting career. He was good in math, he actually watched the financial news and commented back to the anchors, and he could ( Read more... )