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i
am
numb

the first time i looked at the clock since i've been at work. and what did it say.....10:22.....

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life throws a lot of things at you that you must deal with. some are harder than others. some make you act a way you never thought you would. some you just have to suck up and get over. right now i know there is one issue that i mus get over. i have already started the process. i've made a mend and said i'm sorry with a person i've disliked for a ( Read more... )

well......now is the time to get my life in order, in balance and just remember who i am. maybe in time i can get over my retarded behavior. i know is wrong i know its dumb and i know i want to not do it, but i guess i just have to be faced with it more than a few times here and there to get over the feeling. i guess only time will tell, and i hope ( Read more... )

so today in spanish class i had to be once again stabbed in the heart and reminded how much i fucked up. we got assigned to write a paper about " a very special person" of course one person came to my mind first. then there is this, and i quote "..focus on a particular characteristic, such as eyes, the smile, the voice, the persons laugh, or the ( Read more... )

YES!!!!
<3

i messed up.....even if there was a chance us being us again.....i'm pretty sure i took that away and i feel like shit about it

someone please just shoot me now........
i hate this feeling.....i just want it to be over...

why can't it be fixed.....

right now i wish i could make myself stop loving her and maybe that would make it easier
.....but i know i can't....cause i've never loved anyone more

i truly thought things were getting better.......