about two weeks til lay off from the looks of things. i wonder whats next?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vj1zSvbIu8Q

 at my parents house tonight for sleeping purposes, just like everynight and wow i'm so much more at peace here then i am in the house where i pay rent, tonight i had two roomates having sex in the room above me and anothers band playing in the room next to me (they are horrid). i really need to change up my living situation but i want to stay in a ( Read more... )

the world seems to move slower when you're alone. sort of like trying to run through water. usually i'm happy that way, or at least i dont notice it, god knows its self inflicted but recently its been a bit too much even for me. wake up at 4:30 in the morning go to work get home at 7 at night and i feel like going out and doing something but the ( Read more... )

 hmmm i think i'll post a short bio, seems fitting since its been a long time since i wrote anything ( Read more... )

you could set your watch to my emotional cycles

last night i finished reading the perks of being a wallflower and when i put it down i realized something...i was morbidly depressed...i could relate to the main character a little too much...it was more or less my high school experience all over again(only i cant fight and i never really got into the rocky horror picture show) and it made me ( Read more... )

not much of to say really..been like six months...yet i still return...but with a new email and aol screename...lostatsea76 and lostatsea76@netzero.com

so much to say yet i cant find the words...kinda funny i find i talk alot less now...how can you voice a pain that is always the same...i always whine about the same thing...the same person...and right when i think its time to give up...i find hope...is there anything more dangerious then hope?

i have thought about reopening this for a while simply for the theroputic aspects of it...and yet i damn fuck this i need to go for a walk

i feel like my best days are behind me...that i look at a time and day...i can even give a date...when i was truely happy...big ol toothy grin happy...and now i feel i will never be that happy again...what is worse is i continued those moments of happiness out in another reality which i created for myself...one of hope of what might be...and i ( Read more... )