so my birthday passed by like every year, thanks too all who wished me a good one.... but i guess the one i looked foward to the most this year just didnt come.... maybe its for the better who knows life goes on....

its always a long while inbetween updates, i suppose i just wait for things to bottle up and then use this a way to sort out what i'm feeling. its comforting plus you dont talk back lol! its been nearly two years, yet you plauge my dreams.... i can't call them nightmares because the thought of you is so warm and touching and comforting, i find my ( Read more... )

well here goes another installment of my life sucks! but i'm dealing the Carrie, my tacoma is deadish... blew the driveshaft... Rhonda my S10 is limping along holding on to life, Lucille my Van is outta commision for the time being she needs an exhaust... Darren himself is lost to his emotions cuz they suck hahahaha Cara my GF and i are on a break ( Read more... )

its 5am do you know where your asian is... i do he's fucking still awake..... someone please tell me whats wrong with me please....

its 430 am WOOT! i'm inspired to work on rhonda aahahahahaha what i wont do during daylight hours i'm willing to do in the wee hours of the morning when its -mynipsarehard degress out! hahahhaha i'm cracked out! and in a surprisingly good mood though my whole well not my whole but just about everything in my life sucks a big fat black cock ( Read more... )

soo soo tired its 5 am but yet i cant sleep..... such that is life......

where to begin? lol maybe the ramblings of a mind gone to waste? hahahaa oh the joys of life and all its splendor... its 4:30am who in there right fucking mind is awake, i am said the crazy asian who rarely sleeps.... i'm not right in a lot of ways, its starting to get scary, maybe i'm not sure of how i feel anymore. for starters i've sheltered ( Read more... )

i can't stand this anymore... insomnia is consuming me alive.... its night 4 i still cant sleep i take little naps here and there but what the fuck is a half hour gonna do for me? my thoughts are exactly whats consuming me whole but thats a long story i dont want to get into... i'm literally my own worst enemy.... it fucking sucks! i've been busy ( Read more... )

so i've been out of work for two weeks now =( no job no money life would almost suck a lot, except Cara she's been backing me up, helping me pay for my shit she's amazing. my truck got fucked up the hoods a mess i'm attempting to repair it but we'll see what happens.

so things are great! well almost great, im sickly hahaha it sucks i mean not enough to stop working but i can feel it sitting at the desk is hard enough =( o well. talked to erica for a min last night it was good to hear from her good luck with your show!