lately i havnt been able to define the term happiness, its no longer something i feel anymore. and my mom isnt helping out with all this bullshit shes been giving me and grounding me for missing the bus. i have no one both ways anymore who i can depend on and love. im on the fucking verge of just breaking down. i started to fucking shake today ( Read more... )

Today was different and i guess im going to have to get used to it being that way after saturday. The "new" CCD song isnt new its just an old song renamed and remastered but still metal as fuck. I had so much cheesecake in judys today shit was so good. Cheesecake and bribery dont go hand in hand so much for a change. Yeah life isnt complete anymore ( Read more... )

After an encounter today it left me discontent to myself. So to most people im not a good person anymore now im guessing. Nothing like going home feeling like somethings missing and empty. Now i wont even be missed...if i was ever going to be in the first place. Maybe im wrong maybe they just see something different either way im through with this ( Read more... )

"What historical figure would you fight? Ghandi. Good answer."

I think ive found something that i can finally be happy with and love. Today felt really empty. Made doughnuts in chefs club and talked and joked with jenny cook, shes pretty rad. Melissa stayed after school with me and gave me a ride home where i am currently residing. Sometime during ( Read more... )

I have now learned to never walk drunk on a road you dont have the ability to walk on. I also realized that theres somethings ill just never have and if i wasnt drunk im pretty sure i wouldve grasped that concept instead of the bottle. And also i saw people for who they really were and im not sure if i want/can be friends with them i dont know. And ( Read more... )

Lately in a good mood chaa<3. Vietnamese own all end of story. Jewish holiday tomorrow no school finally they are good for something sorry shelby. Golf course or movie seat chaaa. And yeah im thinking movies friday at altamonte or something. Later

Chaa so ive made up my mind. Im not going to open up to anyone forevermore, ive already let way too many people get close and i feel as if i should start pushing them away and become somewhat distant for my and their own good. Its just a fucking waste of time confiding in people or being emotionally attached.

Ive got 4 fucking articles due tomorrow ( Read more... )

I got to thinking at steak n shake the other nite while devouring my club sandwich and listening to my friends talk about the old days and how the people have changed and talking about them in a bad way and i started to think of the times i talked about my friends behind their backs and it hit me, they probably and most likely do the same things ( Read more... )

Today didnt get trashed as planned and once again i think shits goin down son throw yo click up. Napoleon Dynamite going on 2 or 3 times now and i wanted to shake the baby behind me who talked incessantly for no apparent fucking reason =]. So im thinking tomorrow corona, for those of you reading you know which kids im talking to. I know have a new ( Read more... )

Today was one of the most memorable and stressful days ill ever have. Got that 1.7 litre of vodka split it up with kyle and liz. Ha we were tripp'n. I just like laid down after and didnt wake up for like 2 hours. After that went to fraziers and watched kill bill vol 2. but i remembered i said id tell caitlin happy birthday in person today which i ( Read more... )