I am not one to walk on the side of angels. I merely bend and break myself to become perfection. I will slowly kill myself to look like an angel on earth, praying to meet them in my death.

I need to start again. I am too fat. This is ridiculous. I need to drop this weight. God dammnit. I am tired of being fat. To hell with this.

Well well well...look who has come crawling back. ME!!! Miss me? Ha. No, probably not. But that's ok, that's what my life is like now ( Read more... )

"Some of you have met me and some of you haven’t. Even if you haven’t met me, you have heard of me. My name is whispered through the crowds. I am written about in newspapers and magazines. I am respected for my determination and intelligence. I am prized about all of my kind ( Read more... )

"Sometimes I'm terrified of my heart. Of it's constant hunger for whatever it is it wants. Sometimes I'm terrified of my heart; the way it stops. . . . and starts ( Read more... )

Well, I have started a new diet today. It's a soup diet. I found this awesome veggie soup recipe that is supposed to be fat-burning. So I am going to try it out. I am going to be doing it for about 2 weeks. I just hope I can hold out. :-) I really want to be thin again. Ok but here is some awesome news! I was able to put my belt one loop tighter ( Read more... )

Well, I have finally come back. I no longer turn from Ana, I freely embrace her. I know that I have to be thin to be good enough. So I will starve, exercise, purge and whatever I have to inorder to achieve it. I will damn it. No more being the good little girl. F*ck that. I am sick and tired of doing what everyone else wants me to do. I am going to ( Read more... )

Hello everyone. I realize that I haven't been here in god knows how long. I have been good. I work and go to school now. I also sort of put myself back into remission. I realize that it may be a wasted effort to do so but I am just going to take one day at a time. I have returned to being a strict vegetarian too. I am not longer going to eat any ( Read more... )

So I did it. I broke it off with him. I told him that I can't handle being in a relationship now. I don't have any emotions left over from the baby. I didn't tell him about the baby, I just said that i don't have any emotions left over after this last relationship. (if you can call it that) He didn't understand how that I can't have any emotions ( Read more... )

I found this poem a little bit ago. I haven't ever posted poetry on here before so be kind ( Read more... )

Last night my guy came over and was helping me look for some disks that I had thought I had lost. Well, I went into the other room to finish up a movie with my my roommate and when I came back in the room he was reading my mirror. Not so big right? Wrong. On my mirror I have Ana's Commandments and her creed. I read them everyday to remind myself ( Read more... )