i have chosen to drop livejournal and cross over to xanga. sry but this journal holds too many memories.

this must be fake xangalicious baby.

valentine's day sucks. well this is nice. i'm officially and completely, 100% done with zach. i'm glad... like it was cool for a little bit and then it just made me sad. the whole thing made me moody and emo-ish. i just got depressed when he stopped calling. and now i'm free to feel however i really feel... but i think he was talking to his ( Read more... )

i have moved on... zach can forget me or whatever he wants, but as far as i know he can just take his ass and do whatever he wants, i have a feeling he's cheating on me anyways. so fuck him, he's not going to hold me down and make my life hell. fuck that, i cheated on him twice today, sooo he can kiss my ass, ha!!! i win. but i'm sooooo over him ( Read more... )

i haven't forgotten about him... yes... zach. the reason why my life is fucking hell... he can make me a frigging happy person if he calls once. everyone elses would be happy too cuz i know they hate it when i'm a depressed piece of shit.

it takes many tears and many lies, a retard and a rope to kill me. i undo my apology to him and i wish i'd never met him. he brings a rope around my neck and makes me shake and cry and turn purple. it went from cool dude to complete man-whore in one weekend. i called with a rope around my neck and it's a scary thought to know my parents are 2 rooms ( Read more... )

sry josh, i'm soooo cruel.

saturday was one of the best days of my life. so... SVNH came over and we met et the park and then we went to publix and bought some food and then we ate our food at some other park and then we came to my crib (ghetto fabulous) and did every sterio typical thing girls do at sleep overs, which is the gayest term ever, but we did each others make up ( Read more... )

i think i might have beat my knee cap too hard. so last night josh met my sis at Baywalk. and i cut myself alot because of him. i hope he feels like an ass. today i plan on hanging out with SVNH. we'll prolly hang out with jeff too. and not josh. we're gonna try to get part of the list done today. you see i'm not mad at josh, i just am mad at ( Read more... )

so pretty much every night now i've been hanging out with my sis and i've been chilling in her room just digging needles under my cuts and it's been uhh, bloody. i guess it's pretty cool, i'm sure she's still pretty creeped out by it but she hasn't said anything to make it worse. we like to call DD and C. i think it's fun and it can be pretty ( Read more... )

josh made me laugh!!! holy shit, he's soo stupid and he got me laughing... like haha, hehe. this is war!!! i'm going tomorrow without smiling or laughing. i got out of the shower like 15 minutes ago and my hair is super duper wet. but i might straighten my hair tonight so i won't be all cranky and do it tomorrow morning. ughh, i can't wait for ( Read more... )