i did it because i love you.
so pretty much every night now i've been hanging out with my sis and i've been chilling in her room just digging needles under my cuts and it's been uhh, bloody. i guess it's pretty cool, i'm sure she's still pretty creeped out by it but she hasn't said anything to make it worse. we like to call DD and C. i think it's fun and it can be pretty retarded but we've "bonded." C and SVNH are going out again i don't care but like i hate this time of year, recent studies have shown that this time of year is the most depressing, i guess so but i really am um nervous i don't know why. but i always get knots in my stomach and i have no reason to be all uncomfortable but i sit there thinking and i can't control it but i am posessed and i just breathe really wierd and i have a compulsion to twist the veins in my wrist. so don't ask why, the thoughts are stonger than i am. they can control me, that's why i get silent and drop to my knees and sit there. so there's the reason!! okay... so i have spilled another secret of mine. happy now?