if you take the person who is most interested in life and you told him the meaning of life, would he be more interested, or would he completely reject everything he WAS interested in? i think he would reject it. by this, i mean that life has proven to me over and over again that it is nothing but a series of inevitably painful events. one thing ( Read more... )

my friends dad killed himself on tuesday. its really weird because i met the man a couple days before then and he seemed fine. he was talking about how amazing video game graphics have become. as a person who's considered suicide as an option more than once, i can understand why he would want to, what i dont understand is how someone can ( Read more... )

right...my life has changed. instead of a focus on the things i've come to love. friends or art. its all about money, i have to pay to learn to live to do anything i want to do because there is nothing that is free. we pay to breathe by paying to live and so on and so forth. its a vicious circle and in the middle of it all lies money, ( Read more... )

so lately i've been making a desperate attempt at getting myself away from being vulgar. i cant stand it anymore. it's always "fuck this" "fuck that" where did all my intellectual qualities go? i used to be so full of them. also, there is no real point of interest in my life. i need to seriously get back into my art and my writing, i need to ( Read more... )

sometimes...i think im a good person. sometimes i do things right and i dont mess up and i feel good about myself ( Read more... )

so, marina, do you still read this ( Read more... )

fuck livejournal.

my intent here, was to write something witty and intellectual, but i completely fucked that up. 'night.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

GIRLFRIEND~~~~ yay.

wow, thats fucking scary. i dont remember posting that last one.