sometimes.
sometimes...i think im a good person. sometimes i do things right and i dont mess up and i feel good about myself.
and sometimes.. like last night. i find that im not really that great of a person. and i have to try to figure a way out of a certain situation while still maintaining a good personal outlook.
but its not going to happen.
i make myself miserable sometimes. now would be one of those times.
last night i fucked up really bad. did something stupid while my conscience scream "NO NO NO!! YOU FUCKING MORON! STOP STOP!!"
why is it that i never listen to that little shit?
well. i guess i'll have to finish this. no loose ends right?
...even if it makes me a terrible person. i would be all the more terrible if i just pretend im not sick to my stomach. Jesus Christ, i dont ask much of you, i dont even know if i believe in you. but please....help me.
-lou
and sometimes.. like last night. i find that im not really that great of a person. and i have to try to figure a way out of a certain situation while still maintaining a good personal outlook.
but its not going to happen.
i make myself miserable sometimes. now would be one of those times.
last night i fucked up really bad. did something stupid while my conscience scream "NO NO NO!! YOU FUCKING MORON! STOP STOP!!"
why is it that i never listen to that little shit?
well. i guess i'll have to finish this. no loose ends right?
...even if it makes me a terrible person. i would be all the more terrible if i just pretend im not sick to my stomach. Jesus Christ, i dont ask much of you, i dont even know if i believe in you. but please....help me.
-lou