Okay I have been out in the real world the past few days. Not LJ world. :( I know. I'm a disappointment. haha I haven't counted calories in days. I feel so fat beyond words. BUT I have been dancing like crazy. My body is in soo much pain haha but I'm content that I can still dance regardless of how much tylonel I have to chew just to walk ( Read more... )

I have been HORRID this weekend. I can't even look at my scales. Yesterday all I ate was half of a bean crunch wrap, an apple thingy, and two beers. Still a lot but considerably better than the day before which I won't even talk about. Today WILL be better. I can't even face my scales because I know I'm a disappointment. Ugh. I'm going back ( Read more... )

So... you know when you do stupid shit. Like sleep with your ex boyfriend. Loudly. At a party with 50,000 people? Yeah.... yeah I hate that. Fuck. Bruises on my neck. This morning was awkward. Fuck. He was proud of himself. Damn it.

Today has been stellar. I slept until 3 PM haha to catch up on my overnighters. I talked to Joe a few times. Ali is in town but she didn't stay at his house which was weird. Then he called me but I was with Darci so by the time I got done with her he was already in bed. Whatever. I'm not worried about it. I think he's coming over Saturday. ( Read more... )

I am FINALLY done with my first year of collegee! YAYYYYYYYYY ( Read more... )

Welll it is 5 AM. I have been studying since 9 PM yesterday. Yayyy. hah But I'm actually really pumped for this final. I think I've got this. I'm going to read once more through my notes. Review one more of the old tests. And call it a night/morning. haha ( Read more... )

So I forgot to mention that yesterday I saw my kinda ex kid Mike when I went to go get some magical substances. He was my last resort so I texted him and told him I know he hates me but I need him. He called me and was all sweet and was like "I don't hate you, I never did." and it was nice to hear that. Seeing him was so crazy. He's so damn ( Read more... )

I give up. It is 5:30 in the morning. I have been studying without getting up except to pee since 11 PM. That is 6 and a half hours. Plus all I did this weekend. I have a 5 subject notebook, I have filled an entire subject of it just on chemistry notes from the past few days. You would think I was a chemistry genius by now. I just retook our ( Read more... )

I'm so frustrated. My chem final is in 11 hours. I am so fucked. I have studied forever. And ever. And ever. It's IMPOSSIBLE. There is just soooo much. I want to cry. Or break something. I hate chemistry. It's so obnoxiousssssss. I don't care about it AT ALL ( Read more... )

My life is falling into order! I just called BU and it's going to be super easy for me to get in there for next semester. I'll be a "non-matriculated" student. But I can earn like... 18 credits. Which is what I already do per semester at albany. Andd I don't have to send them my transcript! ha! Awesome. haha Because I only have a 2.8 as of ( Read more... )