Last year around this time, my husband and I went on a trip to Italy. My family is from Sicily, and I had always dreamt of going there. We visited Rome and Sicily. I would love to someday take my whole family there for a summer and rent a little house in the Italian countryside. Maybe when I win the lottery! Anyway, thinking about our trip inspired ( Read more... )

Good list /Bad list

colors /darkness

books/ hands

kittens/ the smell of fear

babies /sudden loud noises

quiet rain in the afternoon /fingernails on a chalkboard

violins/ stretch marks

watermelon jolly ranchers/ ipecac

swings/teeter totters

butterfly kisses/ angry shouting

wishing/ unanswered prayers

diet soda /root beer

the back of a little boys neck / ( Read more... )

I don't even know where to start right now. I am an adult woman, but if anyone had overheard the conversation that I had with my husband this morning, they would have thought that he was speaking to a child. Why does he think that he can tell me how to spend my free time? He would like to plan my schedule around his wants and needs. I'm so sick of ( Read more... )

Fighting For Light

Inside out,
outside in
Fight the weakness,
don’t hold it all in.
Push away the ugliness.
Kick and scream.
Today...
it is only a dream.

Find the strength
to bury the shame.
Suffocate the cries,
kept hidden deep within.
Free the voices,
adrift in the wind.

Still the mind,
with thoughts
pure and bright.
Relinquish the pain.
Bring forth a new ( Read more... )

It has already been an emotional day for me. There is a girl here in Kansas that was ubducted on Saturday, and they just found her body. I turned on the television this morning and there it was on the news. The man that killed her has been caught and he lived right here in my own community. She was taken at the same Target store that I often go to ( Read more... )

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Here's to reconnecting with old friends. Cheers!

Last night I went out with my old high school chum, and talked for over three hours! I remembered why we became friends in the first place. She is still a beautiful, talented, interesting and funny woman, and we have great taste in friends! I'm looking forward to some fun times with her in the future ( Read more... )

A sleepless night again. I'm a once or twice a week insomniac. It drives my husband crazy! I can't just lie in bed if I'm not going to fall asleep. My mind just goes too crazy if I do that. Have you ever closed your eyes and felt like everything you ever did in your life was put on fast forward? That is what my head does when I can't sleep!

I have ( Read more... )

All that I can say is cinnamon in my coffee on an early Sunday morning, Yum! I'm up early for no particular reason. I love the feeling of having the whole day stretched out before me. Oh, the possibilities! Husband and children are still snoozing in their beds, and the dog at my feet, as hopeful as I am. What to do, what to do... I'm thinking that ( Read more... )

This is my 1st journal entry on LiveJournal. The beginning. A new way of viewing myself and the world, I hope. This year has been quite a journey for me. It was almost exactly a year ago that I let go of a secret that I had kept for thirty years. Secrets can literally eat you alive. I'm a recovering anorexic, so I should know! I've been aware of my ( Read more... )