So Much Left Unsaid

BY AMY

It seems today I’ve got the choice

Wither to live or die

Which one will I choose?

As I break down and start to cry

I’m sorry Mommy,

Daddy you too

I’ll be another statistic

With the many few

Who went to hell

Because they took their own life

They couldn’t handle

All their pain and strife

No one knows

The pain I’m in

No ( Read more... )

To Be Numb is to Be Okay  
 By Amy

Watching the time pass

As I slowly slip away

I will finally be free

By the end of the day

Never to return alive

I’ll drift happily down to hell

No matter what you say
I can never fully tell

What happened late at night

As the TV blared

Frozen in fear

And no one really seemed to care

Except HIM; he loved me

That’s why he did ( Read more... )

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PLANTING SEEDS  October 25, 2005

The tears start to fade

The pain starts to subside

I’m out in the world, now,

There’s no place to hide

I hold my chin up

I feel “good” today

It’s as if my fear itself

Just floated away

I’m ready to take on the world

Me with me alone

Through heaven’s gate I hear

Mom’s approving tone

I’ll be okay by myself

Because I’m not ( Read more... )

Lost Soul                                                          BY: THE POSSE AND OTHERS

A made-up girl

A figement of your imagination

She’s solid in frame, but

A lost soul inside

She wants out, but

Most people push her back down

Sssshh… you might actually

Wake her bruised and dead self

What could she do to hold it back?

She’s tried endlessly, and have ( Read more... )

Just Wondering  Amyystar

You sit down

And wonder why

Life’s gone by you hurting

Till you just want to die

There’s nothing to do

Plan it or give it a thought

Your dreams are left behind you

All you remember is how bad you fought

Was what you had meant to be?

Life, actually, is what I mean…

Your mind looses it’s only ground

Thoughts pass from bad- to- obscene

( Read more... )

okay this is ridiculous.....someone gave me the link to the stupid free live journal where they talked about me.  That made me angry....they gave it to me before my OD....i didn't remember reading it till today when i re read it.  It didn't bother me as much as it bothered me last time i don't think.  Now i just am angry.  First of all, i don't ( Read more... )

A Little Girls Fight

A little voice ringing inside my heart

A sweet little girl crying, I’ve tried to part

This girl is so small, a baby at that

She’s sitting and petting a tabby cat

She feels safe and secure

Her past is such a blur

Only floating to the sky

When life goes awry

She can’t remember it but she knows it is so

All she wants is to leave this ( Read more... )

What I Hold in My Hand

By Amy

I hold in my hand

What I see is my fate

Nothing can stop me

For it’s much too late

When I’m finished

All I will see

Is a large room

White clouds surrounding me

It’ll be better than here

My problems will be small

For I will be dead

I’ll be nothing at all

I pray for the day

That I will die

No one will care

( Read more... )

Just Not This Second

By Amy

8/2007

A secret no one knows
A heart that bleeds in sorrow

A face; a life; that’s just a pose

No one understands me

What it’s really like

To want; to disappear; to just be free

I don’t really want to die

I just don’t want to exist

To breath; I bleed; I just can’t cry

I don’t want to world to affect me

Nor to affect the world

Be ( Read more... )