Poem 2
What I Hold in My Hand
By Amy
I hold in my hand
What I see is my fate
Nothing can stop me
For it’s much too late
When I’m finished
All I will see
Is a large room
White clouds surrounding me
It’ll be better than here
My problems will be small
For I will be dead
I’ll be nothing at all
I pray for the day
That I will die
No one will care
No one will cry
Cause if they cared
They’d see
I’m in hurt and pain
I’m not the old me
I used to be happy
I used to care
Now I don’t anymore
This really isn’t fair
Why should I have to deal?
With something this hard
God I’m only 14
I feel like a card
You can open and shut me
Throw me away
Keep me somewhere safe
To read the next day
In my case
You threw me away
How could you care?
I don’t believe what you say
You say you care
Is that really true
If I were to die for you
Would you be willing to die for me too?
I’m guessing not-
I’m not worth dieing for
I mise well go
Let my soul soar
I’ve decided to take this weapon
Into my temple
I’m slowly slipping away
Is it really this simple?
I’m almost gone
Laying on my bed
I close my eyes
And lay down my head
I’m dreaming of heaven
I’m dreaming of hell
I’m dreaming of death
Ringing the bell
To enter my resting place
Forever and ever, I’m dead
I’m saying goodbye
Saying the things that were left unsaid
“I love you mommy,
Daddy you too!
Remember the good times,
I’ve had with you!”
Now I’m awake
Where am I?
Am I in heaven? Am I in hell?
Did I even die?
My mom rushes over
From the other side of the room
My throat is burning
All I can assume
They’ve saved me from the fate I want
They just don’t understand
I’d rather live in hell than here
The land of eternal damned
I heard it put that way to scare me
Into wanting to live
Oh mommy, daddy, friends, and family
Please, please- try to forgive!
I took that weapon once again
To end it all
I closed my eyes
And started to fall
I didn’t wake up
I was finally dead
I hope you understand
I meant what I said
And if by chance you didn’t believe me
I’m sorry to inform you two
I meant what I said
And guys- I still love you!
By Amy
I hold in my hand
What I see is my fate
Nothing can stop me
For it’s much too late
When I’m finished
All I will see
Is a large room
White clouds surrounding me
It’ll be better than here
My problems will be small
For I will be dead
I’ll be nothing at all
I pray for the day
That I will die
No one will care
No one will cry
Cause if they cared
They’d see
I’m in hurt and pain
I’m not the old me
I used to be happy
I used to care
Now I don’t anymore
This really isn’t fair
Why should I have to deal?
With something this hard
God I’m only 14
I feel like a card
You can open and shut me
Throw me away
Keep me somewhere safe
To read the next day
In my case
You threw me away
How could you care?
I don’t believe what you say
You say you care
Is that really true
If I were to die for you
Would you be willing to die for me too?
I’m guessing not-
I’m not worth dieing for
I mise well go
Let my soul soar
I’ve decided to take this weapon
Into my temple
I’m slowly slipping away
Is it really this simple?
I’m almost gone
Laying on my bed
I close my eyes
And lay down my head
I’m dreaming of heaven
I’m dreaming of hell
I’m dreaming of death
Ringing the bell
To enter my resting place
Forever and ever, I’m dead
I’m saying goodbye
Saying the things that were left unsaid
“I love you mommy,
Daddy you too!
Remember the good times,
I’ve had with you!”
Now I’m awake
Where am I?
Am I in heaven? Am I in hell?
Did I even die?
My mom rushes over
From the other side of the room
My throat is burning
All I can assume
They’ve saved me from the fate I want
They just don’t understand
I’d rather live in hell than here
The land of eternal damned
I heard it put that way to scare me
Into wanting to live
Oh mommy, daddy, friends, and family
Please, please- try to forgive!
I took that weapon once again
To end it all
I closed my eyes
And started to fall
I didn’t wake up
I was finally dead
I hope you understand
I meant what I said
And if by chance you didn’t believe me
I’m sorry to inform you two
I meant what I said
And guys- I still love you!