Poem- Just Wondering
Just Wondering Amyystar
You sit down
And wonder why
Life’s gone by you hurting
Till you just want to die
There’s nothing to do
Plan it or give it a thought
Your dreams are left behind you
All you remember is how bad you fought
Was what you had meant to be?
Life, actually, is what I mean…
Your mind looses it’s only ground
Thoughts pass from bad- to- obscene
Thinking of ways to do it
Obsessing of ways to die
Would others miss you
Would they think to say “goodbye?”
Is life worth living
Or a bottomless pit
The smells so strong
You don’t seem to fit
I thought I’d never do it again
I was as wrong as wrong can be
I’m close to death
Why can’t they see?
I’m not too scared
But I do fear the thoughts I ponder
Just one more step left, maybe
Then before you know- I’ll be a goner!