So I called in sick to work on Monday, it killed me to do but when you can't even sit up because you are in so much pain, I think it's a sign something's wrong. While I was home sick I didn't want to fall back into my soaps so I had to make sure I found something else to watch. One of the things I watched was an episode of Roseanne. I used to watch ( Read more... )

I tend to have these... soft spots, if you will, for certain people. For a very long time it has primarily been for Patrick. Anything he needed or wanted that I could provide for him, I did. It never did me any good. Half the time he was pissed off that I helped him (because he HATES having other peoples help). As time has gone on he has lost his ( Read more... )

Why is it so hard for people to understand that if you are a part of my life I'm going to look out for you. I'm gonna do whatever I can for you. It has nothing to do with love or sex. It has nothing to do with expecting anything back. I do it because I'm constantly wanting to make everyone else happy. I'm doing it because I worry more about what ( Read more... )

I fucked up. As always, I fucked up. I tend to make mistakes that I know I shouldn't be making but I make them anyways in hopes that the out come won't be what I think it will be. As always, I'm wrong. There's always what I want to happen and what I know will happen, which is usually (9 times out of 10)what actually happens. I blew it and there's ( Read more... )

All I really have to say is one of my needs from the previous entry has been met... I think someone is a mind reader... seriously, there would be no other way because, well, there could just be no other way, right? Anyways, now I have to wait for roomie #1's sister to come over so I can make sure she doesn't steal anything while she's here using ( Read more... )

I was fine. I was going good. Everything (personally) seemed to be plateauing... not with who I want it to or anyone at all, but plateauing none the less. I really want him but it's pretty much at the "snowball's chance in hell" level. He doesn't want me, I don't think he ever did. I can try until I'm blue in the face but then I'll just end up ( Read more... )

How do you ask something when you are too afraid of the answer? When you are hoping so badly that the person responds the way you want them to that if they were to not respond that way you're not sure how you would take it... Would it break your heart? Would you just be upset and get over it quickly? Would it not really phase you at all, to you're ( Read more... )

Ok so, I've been thinking a lot lately. Not just about the whole job thing but about Brian. I was thinking about Prom (I tried on my old dress when I was at my dad's house earlier this week... for the most part it fits!) and little things just came back to me that I really haven't thought about. It just made me think that maybe what has happened ( Read more... )

So I was on my way to the temp agency and Nettalas called me. She was going to be in town that night and wanted to know if me and Steph wanted to get together with her. So the 3 of us met up at Flaherty's. It was a fun time. I called Danny an alcoholic moron about 3 times... i was amused by it. As closing time drew nearer J and Steph decided that ( Read more... )

So Fat Tuesday was a bad DAY. I ws so excited about the day. After work Rob and I had an appt to go sign the lease for the townhouse. I was bragging to Jim and Reena about it, they were so happy for me. Then 4 o'clock rolled around. Rob called me into the small conference room. I asked him if I was going to like this or not. He just said we should ( Read more... )