I Don't Mean To Be A Bother But Have You Seen This Guy? [12/?]
Title: I Don't Mean To Be A Bother But Have You Seen This Guy?
Author: ahintofelation
Rating: NC-17 overall
Pairing: Jack Barakat/Alex Gaskarth (Jalex)
Summary: Jack did the usual, went to some party and fucked some guy but something about this guy was special and now he needs to find him.
Disclaimer: I do not own the boys, would I really be doing this if I did? I do not own any other characters.
A/N: A short chapter but I think it's okay, nothing spetacular just cause I wasn't feeling it. Sorry for the dissapointment.
Chapter 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11
Alex was still sobbing into my chest, I just stroked his hair and occasionally kissed the top of his head.
"Okay I think I can talk now" Alex whispered into my chest.
"Whenever you're ready" I whispered back. He sniffed and sat up straighter against my chest.
"Well you're probably wondering why I just ran out..." He said. I chuckled.
"Yeah sorta" I admitted. He laughed softly.
"See the thing is...I don't really have much of a family. I'm pretty much alone, they hate me" He told me. A tear now made it's way down his cheek. I tightened my arms around him.
"I don't understand...how...someone could hate you" I told him honestly. I was shocked. He now began to cry again.
"It's cause I'm gay Jack. It's cause I'm gay! My parents are really fucking religious okay? They hate homosexuals and once they found out I was they just threw me out! You'd think they'd atleast want one fucking son in their life but no!" He exclaimed letting hot tears fall down his cheeks. I kissed the top of his head.
"That's horrible, I don't understand why they would do that" I told him.
"And all because they believe 'the god doesn't approve' what the fuck! it's like i'm your son, you must understand! fucking hell, they told me they didn't want me their homosexual son in their house! Now they have no children because I can never consider them my parents again" He told me angrily.
"After they threw me out, I felt like no one would accept me, I felt like I was doing something wrong.." He said quietly.
"Alex, being gay isn't wrong. Sure it may feel that way because of your parents but look how happy are you now? Well atleast I hope you're happy" I said unsure. He turned around and smiled.
"Happier than I've ever been" He told me with a smile.
"Well if you're happy it must be right" I told him casually.
"Nah...it's cause you're right Jack. You're the only thing right in my life right now" He told me happily and then his lips were suddenly on mine, I kissed back and then parted when I needed air.
"Alex you just need to know that there are people who accept you and those who do are the most important. Zack taught me that" I told him honestly. He smiled his beautiful smile.
"Yeah I realized" He said tugging onto my top a little bit.
"Jack, there's another reason to why I ran out" Alex whispered against my chest. I stroked his hair.
"What is it?" I asked carefully. I heard him sniff.
"My brother...he erm committed suicide a while back" He told me quietly. I now had what felt like a lifeless Alex in my arms.
"Oh my..." I was gobsmacked. I now felt a tear soak through my shirt.
"I can't remember him growing up, I was too absorbed in my own world and was always shoving him to a side and once my parents found out I was gay I didn't realize how much I needed someone, how much I needed...him. But he wasn't there, he isn't here. And it's all my fault" He sobbed. I tightened my arms around him.
"I'm sure it's not your fault" I whispered. He now got up abruptly and walked to the other side of the room.
"Yes it fucking is! I never gave him any thought, I was too self-absorbed to even think about him for a second, to even think that maybe he had some problems of his own and maybe he wanted to talk to his older brother. I could've been there for him, I could prevented the world of pain he shot my family" He yelled, pulling at his hair.
I slowly got up and walked towards him as he sobbed in his hands. I carefully wrapped my arms around his waist.
"Look Alex, it's not your fault okay? You were just being a normal teenager, wrapped up in their teenage problems. Now there's only one question, do you want to move on?" I asked carefully. I felt him nod in my shoulder.
"Well, if you allow me, I can help you" I whispered into his ear. His head lifted and allowed me to see his tearstained eyes.
"Mhmm" He mumbled with a small smile.
"Thank you, so much Jack. What did I ever do to deserve you?" He murmured. I chuckled.
"You accepted me" I whispered and then pressed a comforting kiss to his lips.
I was now twirling Alex's hair between my fingers as his skinny body was curled up into my side. His bright caramel eyes looked up at me as I twirled his hair with a idiotic smile on my face.
"How long has it been?" Alex asked curiously. I looked down at him. I now began to think.
"About...3 weeks maybe?" I said unsure. He nodded.
"Hmm, I think so" He agreed.
"You'd think by three weeks we shouldn't be curled up in the same bed topless" Alex said. We both laughed.
"Oh and you also shouldn't have blown me in a resturant toliet" I told him with a smirk. He playfully slapped me.
"That was a one time thing, I wouldn't have ever done that!" He exclaimed. I just laughed.
"Do you think this is going to quick?" Alex asked quietly. I sighed and sat up and he mirrored.
"I don't know what do you think?" I asked unsure. He smiled.
"Honestly? Yeah I think to others it appears to be going to quick and out of the norm but we're not too normal so I believe as long as we're happy with the pace it's going at, it's going fine you know?" Alex answered surely. I smiled.
"Well I'm happy" I told him honestly. He now put his knees on either sides of my legs.
"Oh you are?" He asked teasingly.
"Well I mean you are hot so that's the only thing that matters right?" I teased. He pouted.
"Come here you gullible fuck" I pulled him closer and pressed my lips to his, open my mouth for his tongue to have an easy access to mine. His tongue snaked around my teeth and bottom lip as I sighed contently. Once we seperated I laughed.
"We spend a lot of time kissing" I said with a grin.
"Really? I disagree. Is that a stain on your lip?" He said with a smirk and pressed his lips to mine again.