to be in love again is glorious. I finally feel not so alone in this crazy fucked up world. I have something to live for again...and everything in my life has fallen into place nicely...well...kind of...i mean, there were multiple mental breakdowns along the way, but it's all worked out in the end...

wow...so i haven't posted in awhile, but now i feel kinda dumb doing it. There's been a lot going on lately...I was being treated for depression, but then the psychaiatrist i saw realized i was being treated for the wrong thing, and I actually have a type of bi polar. Smoking pot is a mood stableizer, and now we're doing an experiment to see how ( Read more... )

well...uh...pretty much the only people who read this already know what's going on...but yeah...things have been shitty. I kinda had another mental breakdown earlier this week. I'm finding that my wounds from mine and jesse's breakup either never really healed, or they're re opening...and that's really hard to deal with in itself. I don't want ( Read more... )

i hate la grande. the friends i had in highschool still act like they're 12 when we're all together. i'm still the one who always gets singled out, and treated like shit. I get made fun of constantly. it's all becoming clear to me that my depression isn't just genetic. growing up my friends sucked...and so did my parents...mostly my mom. now ( Read more... )

i kinda sorta in a round about way got an intervention today...i don't know what the fuck to think...i hate la grande...and wanna punch someone in the face.

Oh dear god...I don't know if I can deal with this many more times. La Grande pretty much sucks. There's nothing to do, and I'm not loving my parent's new house. My room is tiny, and there's no room for my stuff at all, and I keep getting yelled at for having a messy room, but it's just that there's no room for anything. I have a bed, but the ( Read more... )

RULES: Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird habits/things/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks ( Read more... )

IT'S MY MOTHER FUCKING BIRTHDAY! I'M MOTHER FUCKIN 19! Shit son...I smoked...a bunch...and forced will to take a shot with me...and there was beer too. ugh...i have to get up real early to finish a project...but then my freshman is going to take me to carson after smoking, and some italiano! YAY BIRTHDAY BIRTHDAY BIRTHDAY ( Read more... )

i'm finally over him...more or less...i no longer want him back and my love for him is slowly dissintigrating. it's just weird because i see him, and he's not the same person. i feel like i've put up this barrier...i see him, but i don't. i feel like my memory has been erased. i can't remember what it used to be like...that's kinda what i do ( Read more... )

Artist/Band: Wreckers ( Read more... )