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i'm finally over him...more or less...i no longer want him back and my love for him is slowly dissintigrating. it's just weird because i see him, and he's not the same person. i feel like i've put up this barrier...i see him, but i don't. i feel like my memory has been erased. i can't remember what it used to be like...that's kinda what i do though...i subconciously erase all thing associated with one bad thing. i don't remember what it feels like to love someone...i would say that i can't remember what it feels like to be loved, but i never really was in the first place. i've basically blocked out all memories of our relationship and now i feel like i'm talking to a stranger and i'm wondering where the last 8 months went. i should probably start seeing a counselor again...but i wouldn't tell the truth...i don't think i'm ready to dive into the inner depths of my own mind...i'm afraid of what might get uncovered...