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Bleh >.>
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Email for Matt
Below is the email I just sent Matt. Tomorrow I'm going to get the necklace and earrings he bought me for x-mas and I'm going to give them back...because they meant the world to me and I know at some point when he did love me they meant a lot to him. So..he can have them back. Because I don't ever want to see or touch them again. and then while I'm ( Read more... ) -
Fucking Christ
I've had enough. I can't and won't deal with his shit anymore. I was joking around with him about the whole "lets get married" shit and well he blocked me. I had made a new screen name just for the hell of it and signed in and uploaded my buddy list and he was on. I sent him a message asking him why he blocked me and said "Because you know how to ( Read more... ) -
Bwuahaha
So like for once...I wasn't afraid of the camera XD So..haha there ya go. Updated pic of me :) taken today haha
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My poor little boy....
I took my little boy to the vet today and what not. Well...apparently there is nothing they can do because he tore everything and...well they can't put the bone back in place and what not and if they did it wouldn't stay because he had nothing left in his leg to hold it in place anyway. And putting a cast on a rat would be pointless because they'd ( Read more... ) -
...*sigh*
So much for that all excited Shaunna. I came back to my apartment not long ago and took out mine and matt's rat, Sephiroth. Well...he was hyper as all hell and wouldn't stay put and I gave up trying to keep him on my shoulder or my lap and I didn't want him to get lost in the room so I put him back. I turned around and sat down and suddenly there ( Read more... ) -
Woot!
Last night Matt wanted me to go over. I...didn't. The hardest thing in the world = saying no to him. I was so confused and out of my head; trying to figure out what to say to him. I mean; I even started shaking! It was kind of amusing; well sort of. I just hope he isn't mad at me for saying no. But oh well; I guess little by little I'll...be able ( Read more... ) -
Eh
I think the heavy sense of loss and loneliness is finally settling in. Somehow I dont feel as...whole; ya know? Like my life is missing something that its not supposed to be. Of course; I'm sure we can all guess on what that is...but oh well. Eventually this feeling will fade; I'm sure. I haven't talked to Matt since last night; though I've wanted ( Read more... ) -
When your whole world changes
Well...all of this bullshit with Matt I couldn't take anymore. He has changed so very much and I don't know if I can even love him anymore. I tried to hold on and be strong and patient; and I tried to pretend I was ok and that my love was strong enough to withstand all this. But...I was wrong. This isn't love. I don't care what he tells me. How can ( Read more... ) -
Woot!
Mwuahhaa....ok so I filled out an application for Athens Pizza the other day and the guy (right then and there) told me to call him back Tuesday to see if he could squeeze me in for an interview! I'm so excited. I wouldn't mind working there. Unlike Dragon Palace it'll be fast paced and not-so-boring (I hope x.X) Not to mention that place always ( Read more... )