Eh
I think the heavy sense of loss and loneliness is finally settling in. Somehow I dont feel as...whole; ya know? Like my life is missing something that its not supposed to be. Of course; I'm sure we can all guess on what that is...but oh well. Eventually this feeling will fade; I'm sure. I haven't talked to Matt since last night; though I've wanted to ring him up all day long. I'm trying, I really am, to just...let him go. Its so very hard. How do you let go of the best thing that ever happened to you? How do you walk away from the thing you crave most? He was like a drug to me...and god coming off him is going to be the death of me. But as I sit here and ponder; think about what to do...I'm not so sure I can go back to him now. I just...can't.
On another note. I had my interview today. I called at one like the guy said but apparently he forgot and he wasn't there when I called. So after I got out of work today I stopped by; and like...caught him off guard. Was rather amusing. He had me wait a little while before he could give me an interview because the other guy was on break and all that. But yea; it was interesting. He brought me into the back room and we went over everything and...for once I actually enjoyed the interview. Amazing, huh? But yea. I have a good feeling about this and I really want this job. I'm not sure why that is, but I do. I'm all excited. Haha. I was about jumping out of my skin when I left Athens.
And on my way out the back door some kid named Chip was out having a small break. He kind of hit on me while we chatted and everything but it was fun never the less. It...kind of feels good to be hit on; ya know? I never really enjoyed it or let it happen when Matt and I were together because...well I never believed in that bullshit. But hey...I can let things like that happen now; can't I? Haha..flirting again will be so..odd but perhaps exciting. We'll see :) Might as well make my freedom worth while; right? x.x I'm sure Matt will. Ahem...anyway >.>
But yea, the interview was great and I enjoyed it and he told me he'd talk to the schedule maker when she was working Thursday (she has tomorrow off) and if he could give me the type of hours I needed..well then I'd probably have myself a job. *squeals* I hope so. I'm SO sick of trying to look for a job I want and I'll enjoy..and I have a feeling this will be the place. It won't be GREAT starting pay (he said 7.50 start but that it was negotiable ya know depending on stuff yada yada. So I might be able to get 8 if I can prove I need that type of money. But doesn't matter to me. Money is money x.x) I think he wants me to do the night shifts..which go to 11 and midnight. I wont mind. It'll hard...finding people to hang out with after work and everything...and of course before I go to work everyone else is working..but hey. I don't have that many friends anyway; so whats the difference? Athens is always busy and always has a bunch of people working; people my age, so I think it'll give me a good start on making friends; I hope. Eh..
OMG lol Earlier this morning I took my roomate's bird, Patrick, off his cage and he like climbed up my arm to sit on my shoulder and my friend's boyfriend Willow like tweaked! LOL Patrick..bites...a lot. And he's a grumpy little birdie. Haha. So I was a little nervous with him so close to my ear..but he was a good bird and didn't bite me. Tried to eat my necklace but eh. Then tried to eat the buttons off my shirt -.- Haha. And he nibbled on my neck; but didn't bite me or anything. So when I got back from my interview I put him on my shoulder again and he was a good boy until Aileen came home and took him. Yay; I feel accomplished! XD Haha..how odd.
Anyway I don't think I have anything else to ramble about ...soo I'll update this another time. ^^
On another note. I had my interview today. I called at one like the guy said but apparently he forgot and he wasn't there when I called. So after I got out of work today I stopped by; and like...caught him off guard. Was rather amusing. He had me wait a little while before he could give me an interview because the other guy was on break and all that. But yea; it was interesting. He brought me into the back room and we went over everything and...for once I actually enjoyed the interview. Amazing, huh? But yea. I have a good feeling about this and I really want this job. I'm not sure why that is, but I do. I'm all excited. Haha. I was about jumping out of my skin when I left Athens.
And on my way out the back door some kid named Chip was out having a small break. He kind of hit on me while we chatted and everything but it was fun never the less. It...kind of feels good to be hit on; ya know? I never really enjoyed it or let it happen when Matt and I were together because...well I never believed in that bullshit. But hey...I can let things like that happen now; can't I? Haha..flirting again will be so..odd but perhaps exciting. We'll see :) Might as well make my freedom worth while; right? x.x I'm sure Matt will. Ahem...anyway >.>
But yea, the interview was great and I enjoyed it and he told me he'd talk to the schedule maker when she was working Thursday (she has tomorrow off) and if he could give me the type of hours I needed..well then I'd probably have myself a job. *squeals* I hope so. I'm SO sick of trying to look for a job I want and I'll enjoy..and I have a feeling this will be the place. It won't be GREAT starting pay (he said 7.50 start but that it was negotiable ya know depending on stuff yada yada. So I might be able to get 8 if I can prove I need that type of money. But doesn't matter to me. Money is money x.x) I think he wants me to do the night shifts..which go to 11 and midnight. I wont mind. It'll hard...finding people to hang out with after work and everything...and of course before I go to work everyone else is working..but hey. I don't have that many friends anyway; so whats the difference? Athens is always busy and always has a bunch of people working; people my age, so I think it'll give me a good start on making friends; I hope. Eh..
OMG lol Earlier this morning I took my roomate's bird, Patrick, off his cage and he like climbed up my arm to sit on my shoulder and my friend's boyfriend Willow like tweaked! LOL Patrick..bites...a lot. And he's a grumpy little birdie. Haha. So I was a little nervous with him so close to my ear..but he was a good bird and didn't bite me. Tried to eat my necklace but eh. Then tried to eat the buttons off my shirt -.- Haha. And he nibbled on my neck; but didn't bite me or anything. So when I got back from my interview I put him on my shoulder again and he was a good boy until Aileen came home and took him. Yay; I feel accomplished! XD Haha..how odd.
Anyway I don't think I have anything else to ramble about ...soo I'll update this another time. ^^