The more I see of the grass on the other side, the less I like... The happier I am to be me, with my green grass, in my own little plot of the world ( Read more... )

So I think I have a handle on this whole Navy-wife thing... tonight is the first breakdown I have had since Shawn went out again. [I hate those terms, by the way... Navy wife, military wife... fucking dumb.] Shawn has been gone for two weeks now, after three days in port and two weeks out previously. We still have a week left ( Read more... )

Right now I am sitting on Shawn's bed, using his laptop (which is pretty cool) to keep myself from going crazy while he is at work.

First, I must say that at 6:00 in the morning, Hawaii is absolutely beautiful. Now that Shawn lives on the other side of the island, I am really getting to see Hawaii as I saw it in my mind's eye before I came here the ( Read more... )

I don't know how to explain how I have been feeling lately because some of the feelings I have been having are contradictory to each other. In effort to sort them out, there they are...

For the first time in my life, I feel... fantastic. I can't find the words to explain just how great I feel. Yet, there is this sadness that can all but cripple me ( Read more... )

Shawn emailed me yesterday to tell me that his leave got approved! Yippy!!! I can hardly wait! I don't know what we are going to do with two full weeks together without any distractions!!! Yes, I am a selfish wife. I want my husband all to myself so I am going out there instead of Shawn coming out here...

Shawn also told me he made second class. I ( Read more... )

Hmmm... let's see what is going on in my life right now...

Ellie is at Chewy's for the weekend so I feel like I am forgetting something everywhere I go. I miss her. Every weekend she is gone I feel like part of me is missing. I hate it. It has been like this for over a year and yet every other weekend I feel like this. :( A friend of mine told me ( Read more... )

Lately I have been really concerned with what I am going to do, career-wise, for the rest of my life. I feel like I have hit the glass ceiling at work. One day, I am told by my boss that the "corporate boys" want to get me out to a resort in the next few years so I can learn the ropes of running a resort before they bring me back into an office to ( Read more... )

I just got back from seeing Shawn... Actually I have been back for a week. It was great to see him, but as to be expected, leaving was hard and painful. I know I chose this life, and I know that I would do it all over again without even so much as a second thought. I move forward despite the pain everyday becuase I love my husband, and no amount of ( Read more... )

I think I am going to be ok. The past few days have been hard to say the least. Shawn came into town on the 29th of Decemeber and left on the 10th. It is the greatest amount of time we have spent together years. In fact, it was so nice to have him home I married him! :) We had been planning on doing it this leave period anyway, but it's funny to ( Read more... )

Right now I feel like everything is so up in the air. The custody thing isn't finalized yet, so it is one more thing I feel has potential to blow up in my face. Shawn doesn't know when the fuck he will be home. If I don't hear from him soon or find out an ETA soon, I think I will crack. I fucking miss him... There is no two ways about it. I want ( Read more... )