My soul aches with every beat of my heart. I try to forget the sins I carry with me yet am unable to shake them. They seem to be imprinted into my very being. I look at myself in the mirror and do I recognize who I see? It appears to be a stranger who stares back with such familiar loss and sorrow. He seems to be someone who has had many ( Read more... )

Well here I am at work, another Monday come around The weekend went about the same as always, way too quick for my taste. It wasn't the most enjoyable weekend I ever had, but it was far from the worst. I slept fairly well last night though I seem to be having this habit of dreaming and waking up often before its time to actually wake up ( Read more... )

As many of you may know, a very funny comedian passed away yesterday. George Carlin passed away of heart failure. He was one of the very few comedians who could actually make me laugh regardless of how bad my anxiety or depression were. He always had such a funny view on life and a very realistic way of stating his opinion. Some people may not ( Read more... )

I would say good morning but for me I dont feel that at the moment. This waking up at 6am every day is not for me. I am a night owl and i need my evenings. Also I am already starting to feel the stresses of living with someone else in such a small space. I cannot be myself, I have to hold back who I am, I cannot just relax and say what i want ( Read more... )

Well its been a while since i have last posted and I know i promised a much earlier update. I did go through with the move and it was quite stressful. Luckily i was able to just blank out every bad thing she had to say while I was moving my things out ( Read more... )

Well today while at work I was still feeling a bit bummed out. So I ended up going home a couple hours early. I didn't think anything of it myself as I was just looking forward to going home and taking a load off. Well as soon as I walk in the door, my mother pounces all over me. She wasnt just upset she was acting like a raving lunatic. She ( Read more... )

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Well i hope everyone has had a wonderful memorial day weekend. It was a rather long one for me as my anxiety decided to act up on me again. Luckily enough I had a good Sunday/Monday to make up for it. This week finds me to be a very busy polar bear. On Thursday I am meeting up with a friend of mine at a coffee house. I think it will be fun to ( Read more... )

Well its certainly been an interesting few weeks. Since I last posted I have been to pscyhiatrist who recommended a combonation of Lexapro and Welbutrin. So far it seems to be working rather well though I still find myself depressed on occasion. My anxiety is under control for the most part and I dont feel such nasty irritibility or mood swings ( Read more... )

Tonight I am still awake. I just cannot sleep. It is already 4 AM and I can't for the life of me feel tired. I just know this is going to mess me up at work. I am so tempted to just call in. Yesterday I had an appointment with my pscyhologist and he had brought up something that made me quite angry. After telling him how long I had been with ( Read more... )