I talked to Adam today. I was so happy nothing could change the way I feel right now. I was happy that he actually called me. He misses me and told me that. We're just friends for right now and we may possibly get back together in time. I hope we do. Lates.   

People fucking suck. I mean what is the real point in having any? They either just use you or they find a way to hurt you. I dont have many true friends. Never really have, I have always had people who were just there. They never really wanted to care about me or anything that was happening in my life. If you were'nt important enough to talk about ( Read more... )

I have come to the reolization that men suck. They lie and hurt and just make you feel like you are something then turn around and hurt you. I try to be an adult about the situation with me and Adam but he is avoiding me. And the other guy who I thought would actually want a relationship with me. Turns out he is a big scum ball. I just want to die ( Read more... )

I think I have decided that I need to make a new journal and leave this one behind. But this has history and I cant do that. I dont know I'll sleep on it.

I got off the phone with this guy named Stan. He is sweet, funny, and really wants to meet me. I was just sitting here talking to my bestfriend when the phone rang. It was Amishia, and she was like "hey hold on ok?" I was like, "Ok." Then all of the sudden Stan was on the phone. I started to laugh a little and he was like, "Hello. Who is this?" I ( Read more... )

I have been thinking about the things I will miss most if we arent together forever like we had planed. I'll miss the way he would hug me and whisper everything will me alright. Smile at me when I would do something stupid or accident. Make me laugh even if I didnt want to. Do the dorkiest things that were so cute. Love me even when he thought he ( Read more... )

Well Im not to sure about the colors yet, but I guess we'll see how they go. Im crashing for the night.

Well I told Adam he needs to make a choice for once. He of course told me that he didnt know what he wanted. And like the person I am I told him he needs to fucking figure it out and decide whether he wants me in his life or not. I also told him that I wasnt sure if he did decide he wants me in his life that I could handle us just being friends. I ( Read more... )

I told Adam that we needed to start over as just friends. I told him that he needs to see if he wants me as a friend or more then a friend. I think it will be good for the both of us. I met this really cool guy and he laughs, and is just an easy going guy. He said he likes talking to me cause I make him laugh. That made me feel really good, I mean ( Read more... )

Well as the subject says I told Adam that I might be pregnant. He didnt really seem like anything. He said to wait a couple of days and see how things are and we arent going to talk for those couple days and if I haven't had my thing by then, then I take the test right away. Well I asked him if he felt like he was trapped like i had trapped him in ( Read more... )