Subject translation: I'm tired, I tell you!

Man, I'm feeling so lazy lately.  Actually I'm not even sure that's what it is.  Maybe I'm just feeling self-conscious about my computer time when my HM is around.  I realize I haven't been posting often.  I can't wait to get back and spend like a whole day online catching up on stuff like LJ, MM.org, and ( Read more... )

My host mom now completely ignores me.  Even when I talk she ignores me...very discouraging, isn't it? She's been very...umm...okay, I'll be blunt, she's been a bitch to me.  Yeah, I realize she's mad at me for not talking but when I do she looks at me (I know she's glancing at me through the corner of her eye) and then doesn't answer.  Yesterday ( Read more... )

Okay...today was a totally random day.  My host aunt came to visit us from Yokohama seeing as yesterday was an important 'family day'.  But that's not what I am calling 'random', what was random was all of us (host mom, sister, aunt, grandma, and me) going to Karaoke for 2 or so hours.  Everyone sang a few songs and I learned that my Host aunt has ( Read more... )

Okay, I was afraid of saying anything but you know what? I can't keep it inside any longer ( Read more... )

Okay, you know something is wrong when you'd rather stay at school than go home.  I realize that no matter what I do, even if I talk, I'm still never really going to feel welcome in this house.  They aren't mean, nothing horrible has happened between us...it's just, I feel like everything I do, like staying on the computer for longer than an hour, ( Read more... )

Okay, like the title says, I'm doing it.  Now you readers might be a bit lost...I am too.  Actually, I was thinking on the (hour long) bus ride home and ya know what? I'm sick of emotional roller coasters I put myself on by not doing what I love to do: talk.  Yes, I'm going to begin 'Lesa's random talking' experiment.  This plan is rather flawless ( Read more... )

School-wise it was a good day.  I'm actually liking having 2 Japanese classes in one day.  I'm really enjoying Kawamoto sensei's class; he's been printing out interesting articles in the newspaper and bringing them in for us to read.  Now if you know Japanese newspapers, you have to know all your kanji until at least 3rd year middle school (about ( Read more... )

I swear, there is.  I had the whole day yesterday to bond with my host mom and sister but guess what I do? I'm basically dead silent instead.  What's wrong with me? My host mom has sat me down and told me she wants me to talk with them more.  Why can't I do that ( Read more... )