I hurt. My heart is aching, my mind is weary, and my body is in knots. My heart hurts because I long for love much more than I ever have before in my life. My mind hurts because I must tackle all the problems and decisions that I am facing. My body hurts... who knows why, but my back and neck are stiff and a mass of knots and kinks and my arms and ( Read more... )

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I need to do a serious update here. I'm not talking about the daily things that I do, but rather a few major things that I never got around to mentioning.

( Big entry for big issues )

To put it plainly, I am extremely frustrated with Banquet this year... Normally, I don't go unless I have a date (I enjoy dances in general more when there's someone I can specifically pay attention to). This time, I really want to go, but finding a date has been a horrendous experience. I asked nearly eleven women (the first question I asked was ( Read more... )

Today has certainly lived up to it's potential. I expecting to pretty much pass this day off like I do most years, but it really bit me in the butt this time. Now, I don't like claiming that I'm somewhat gullable. It's a sad fact that I tend to trust most people at first encounter. That said, here's been my day so far (and it's only half-over ( Read more... )

When asked what I meant by "exhausted" a week ago, I was forced to make a diagram of what all went into my usage of the word. While I don't really feel like trying to recreate it, since I gave the sheet of paper away, there was one particular idea on there that helped to clarify a need that I feel. In particular, it clarifies a lot about what I ( Read more... )

Choir tour was this weekend. To sum up my feelings about it, it was absolutely horrendous. The performances were not that bad, but the trip itself was what about sent me over the edge. Through out the weekend, I felt isolated, lonely, excluded, forgotten, neglected, ditched, etc. By the end of it, my head was about to explode with built up emotions ( Read more... )

I know I haven't been updating much, as of late. The reason for this is because a lot of what's on my mind are things which I have already extensively journaled about. I know that my journal is supposed to be a method of coping with my stresses and dealing with my problems, but there's a certain extent to which I really don't want to repeat myself ( Read more... )

Today, I got really tired over all the things that are on my mind. As such, I was inspired to, rather than bottle it all up, list all of the things that are currently on my mind. I spent an entire class period working on my list and it's currently up to two and a half pages. Here's that list ( Read more... )

The Bible mentions that the character of something can be determined by the fruits that it bares. Granted, that particular statement was meant to describe the fruits of faith and a true believer. However, I think it also has some practical value as well. In general, regardless of how something is on the inside or how someone says it is, it can ( Read more... )