I'm feeling weak-willed today. Everything seems to be unkind and unforgiving. I feel like if I allowed it everything would just pour out of me right now, and frankly I don't think I can let myself become that vunerable. Last night seemed to last forever, the restlessness took over and I hate thinking too much about everything. It always gets to you ( Read more... )

I wake and feel the tightness in my chest ( Read more... )

I was never really into Ben Kweller, I thought he was ok all-around. I like a couple songs of of his first album and then a couple from "On MY Way", but I must say that I am very impressed with his latest self-titled release. He was on WFPK tonight and it was quite an interview. He performed live on the piano and also played guitar. My favorite ( Read more... )

One of my favorite songs written by George Harrison. The simplicity "Something in the way she moves, attracts me like no other lover", just puts me in this lucid state of mind. It just makes me happy to hear it. It makes me realize that no matter how much I'd beg to differ I am some sort of hopeless romantic. Despite whatever facade or front I've ( Read more... )

I could never even begin to understand my place in my family. I don't fit in because I don't thrive on conflict/chaos. I wish I didn't care so much because maybe then I'd have some sort of peace of mind. I can't prevent my sister from the inevitable self-destructive path that she has chosen. Her taste in boys will surely be her undoing, as she will ( Read more... )

I know what I want. I am just trying to pace myself, but still go at that slow steady rate and climb. Everyone says to wait, and to take all of the time that I could ever want or need. Not to just jump in to things to soon. Truth is, I've been waiting for that sure thing. The desire pulls at the heart, the very core of me and makes it weak. The ( Read more... )

Tonight was the first time I had ever been to the Louisville Palace. I have to say it's my new favorite. Everything was absolutely lush and I just took it all in. It was so romantic and cozy. The grandeur of the classical greek/roman archetecture.The color scheme was breathtaking. The warm terracotta villas and balconies complete with Diana, ( Read more... )

The hormone fluxuation is doing me in. I think estrogen (extra amounts) does make you feel a wee bit crazy. I totally freaked out last night about something that was just a mix-up (of underthings). I don't know why I reacted the way I did, it wasn't even the thought of actual infidelity. I had no ground to stand on and still I blew a fuse. Going ( Read more... )

The best thing ever is something over-exceeding all of your expectations. I never knew this side of things: all the good that came with finding this person. I guess I always expected the fatalistic version of everything, and I have stumbled upon quite the oposite. The anticipation of disappointment is gone, and I am suprised every day with all of ( Read more... )

Listening to Syd Barrett and being restless, I began to slip in a somewhat depressive state. Then something caught my attention, something small, not particularly significant. It changed my entire mood. I then realized there is a man upstairs alone in bed that I should be holding right now, and there is no need to feel any sort of uneasiness, there ( Read more... )