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stigma
i was reluctant to write about my change in medication at the time that i did. i didnt want potential employers to think less of me. but i have decided that its better to inform and be judged than to let someone live in ignorance. i have major depressive disorder. it is a part of me but doesnt define me. i took every thing about mental illness off ( Read more... ) -
great changes
i finally went and talked to my doctor and got on a different medication. i know its too early to judge it, since ive only been taking it a few days, but im happy. I seem to be sleeping regular and feeling more restful. this one also does not have weight gain as a side affect, so i am hoping i can shed the extra pounds, and get healthy again. Ive ( Read more... ) -
the end of an era.
one change can feel so epic sometimes. im putting a resume together and applying at three different companies. all of which i have someone putting a good word in for me. im so excited. but at the same time its sad. ill be leaving the job ive been at for five years. i know thats a short time as far as jobs are concerned, but its like a life time to ( Read more... ) -
unmedicated me
for many reasons i have gone with out one of my medications for the last couple of weeks. i need to go back on it, but at least now i know that i can survive without it, should doug and i ever decide to get pregnant. its really strange. i didnt realize that i could miss these overwhelming feelings. i can feel all the heartbreak of a breakup just by ( Read more... ) -
ramblings of an ordinary day
its been so long since ive written. i guess thats because ive been so busy, and ive gotten so comfortable with life. working two jobs is taking a toll on me, but everytime i get too overworked, someone gives me a break and im recharged. its worth it, though ( Read more... ) -
a quote
what ever souls are made of, his and mine are the same - emily bronte.
i cannot elaborate. this says everything completely -
sigh
doug and i woke up at the same time today, which never happens. and for an hour before work we cuddled and dozed. i was so jealous that he got to stay in bed while i had to go in, but i was happy all day thinking about laying there with him. i feel closer to him everyday. oh i sound so cheesey. whatever. and if anyone doesnt already know, im moving ( Read more... ) -
all in a year
has it really been a year since i blogged on myspace about how happy i was with life? and ive come full circle. hit some hard things and bounced back up. im still so relieved to be out of stephenville. and ive grasped some wonderful things. i have rachael again. ive lost some friendships, but that pales in compasion to what ive gained with her. ( Read more... ) -
overstepping boundaries
been awhile since ive worried i think. ive grown comfortable in a new situation, and am wondering if ive overstayed my welcome. i have the tendency to become attached too quickly. this is just too good for me to screw up, by both moving too fast, or worrying. i dont feel like i will ever learn to balance my emotions. i feel so young. im glad i will ( Read more... )