So. I am sick and feel completely nausaus right now and as though I am going to throw up everywhere. My mom thinks I have an eating disorder, and everyone who I saw yesterday for the first time in ages said that I lost a lot of weight and that "I am so boney". I do not know what to say about that. It's flattering but it doesn't make me feel awesome ( Read more... )

I think I might start updating this again to discuss all my philosophical mindsets and the such.

So i've been partying for the past couple days and have been drinking a lot. There's a party tonight in Northport but I kind of feel like being lazy and relaxing. I'm getting fat from too much food and alcohol. I gained 10 pounds. I remind myself of when I was in high school. My ass is ghetto. Boys like it. But I am horrifed.

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I found one of my old diaries and started reading it and made myself sad. I really miss being in a relationship ( Read more... )

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Mushrooms and jelly really freak me out. I had the best dream last night and I don't remember what it was about. I just remember waking up and feeling like I had slept for 2000 hours, refreshed, and happy. I had an exploration of Queens today and I enjoyed it. I subwayed and bused all around. I felt independent and strong. I love accomplishing ( Read more... )

So i'm sitting in Queens and I feel like garbage.

I think it's pretty amazing how some moment can really get your hopes up and then a few hours later that hope is nothing but what it started out being...sadness. "I've been trying to get in touch with youuu for the past month! Where have you been??" "I thought you didn't want to see me anymore. " "Noo way, i've been trying to get in touch with you ( Read more... )

I went to Mccoys with Vanessa and Steph last night and I loved my life. I missed that. We met up with Chris Gleason there. I luff that kid so much. Free drinks mmm. Long Island Iced teas and drunken ciggys. We couldn't hear anything because of the deafening music so we had to scream to be able to hear eachother. hah. Steph, Vanessa, and I drunken ( Read more... )