i fucking HATE that every time i come on here, there is a new boy. its getting old, and im bored with everything. i dont know what i want, i really have NO idea. Yeah, there is another fucking boy. and i guess you could call it seomthing, though im sure its nothing. im sure its all jsut another mistake ( Read more... )

so i want to be able to come here to tell the truth of the situation, what i'm really feeling. But I've honestly begun to loose touch with it. I know what I'm supposed to want, and that normally a person would still totally be hung up on the break-up, but I'm really not sure ( Read more... )

[[DOUBLE POSTS ARE STILL IN SYLE]]

Today i was dumb and now darren doesnt want to talk to me. or at least i think, so even thats enough to make me feel all uneasy, quesy and gross.

But anyways. I went to the mall for a very little bit, Eryc came to my house and then we walked up to meet Ian. Then French met us there and we went to the movies. We ( Read more... )

Is it just me or, when there is a PA day, teachers give DOUBLE the homework they normally would. When really there is only one extra day, not two, so it should be maybe a 1.5 times the ammount at the most ( Read more... )

So second weekend of school and I'm already screwed over with the amount of homework I have. Nice, right? 
Gah, this means I can't have a life at all. Not that I would be able to anyways, but it's always nice to have options open.
Work is pathetic, Heather is an utter bitch. Today I was about to just spit in her face that I'm quitting but then I just ( Read more... )

Yesterday I took the afternoon off school. and so now I have all of todays homework plus yesterdays which pretty much sucks. It's not like it's hard homework or anything, it just seems like so much so I'm dreading getting started. I don't know about everyone else, but it definately doesn't seem like I'm in grade 12 yet. Even with all the whole talk ( Read more... )

school sucks ( Read more... )

I refuse to cry over him anymore.
he's just an asshole that cares about nobody but himself and his stupid job.
he says he needs to work 24/7 for a scholarship beacsue he cant rely on grades, what fucking bullshit. Whatever happened to just focusing on school when you wanted to do well? It's just another excuse to not see me. 
fucking christ he stamped ( Read more... )

Has anyone gone back and read their past entries? like from years ago? I started to yesterday and it's pretty interesting to see the type of thing that used to be important to me and such. Also kind of pathetic in a way.  But it happens to everyone and I suppose it's a good thing that I see the change ( Read more... )

I need more of your attention.
I'm a greedy, self-absorbed person, and you aren't giving me all that i need.
you don't have enough time for me.
you have too many other things to worry about.
I'm too far down on your list.
and i really hope it changes.
because I'm not sure if i can continue with you being my everything when I'm just another thing you need ( Read more... )