I take it all in and I think I'm fine. But after so long I'm really not ( Read more... )

So today was our last day of school and I can't say that I'm all that sad about it. It was a weird feeling to know that today was the last day I would ever drive in the parking lot and walk through the halls as a student. But when I really look back on the last four years I've went through a lot of stuff and done a lot of things. I can't say all of ( Read more... )

I'm not ready.

For a lot of things.

But I need to learn to be.

Because I can't control them.

I want to start over.

But I can't.

Things aren't letting me.

If only there was a way to fix it all.

Right now is a time when I wished I weighed 120 pounds again. Because only then would I have clothes that fit. I hate looking in the mirror at myself in the morning after I get dressed knowing that none of my clothes fit. It's a pretty crappy feeling ( Read more... )

So how about what I just got I didn't deserve. I just wanted to tell him I had the freaking prom pictures and that I was bringing them tomorrow. Wtf?! I don't even know. And I let that ruin my day because I can't help it because I still care about him. And the fact that my mom told me the biggest reason for my change in the way I was back when me ( Read more... )

The fact that I say it doesn't bother me or that I'm over it, is really just a lie and I should probably stop telling myself that. The fact that he's changed and I've changed makes me know it is better we are apart because I don't need what he wants to be right now. I know he will one day get out of the stage he is in right now. But that is a long ( Read more... )

Today was good ( Read more... )

I'm happy to say that I have no more calculus ever. That is until I have to take it over again in college. But I'm not worried about that at the moment. I shouldn't have to take that much math since I'm majoring in psychology. Hopefully the psychology exam won't be hard next week. I'm so glad school is almost over.

So I absolutely love shopping. It ( Read more... )

amazing. the best word to describe a lot of things. hurt. reality. thoughts. failure. lust. love. confusion. happiness. depressed. being skinny. perfect. school. tests. beautiful. life. phone calls. friends. text messages. memories. family.

my mind is understood as one that is normal. but it's really not. if only you really knew nothing made sense.

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Right now I pretty much feel alone. I have a lot of thoughts going through my mind that I just don't know what to really do with. If I actually got some of them out it wouldn't do me any good. Today was really hard for me. I managed to make it though. I told him not to talk to me until he cared and today after school he talked to me. I don't know ( Read more... )