I'm living each day for you.
So today was our last day of school and I can't say that I'm all that sad about it. It was a weird feeling to know that today was the last day I would ever drive in the parking lot and walk through the halls as a student. But when I really look back on the last four years I've went through a lot of stuff and done a lot of things. I can't say all of it was good though. But what was bad I learned from and it was put there for an experience. I think high school shapes who you are as individual because you spend those four years searching for who you want to be. And when you leave high school you enter a new phase in your life. People get sad because they lose friends and never see people again. But really you shouldn't be sad about that because you will meet new people and the ones who are supposed to stay in your life will.
This new phase I'm entering I want to call my starting over phase. I need it. I'm not exactly sure I'm ready to leave for college and move away from my family and the place I've grown up my whole life. But I know I'm ready to become something of my self. I have dreams and goals I do what to accomplish. And in order to accomplish that I have to start over and move on from things I'm holding on to. The past can't be reborn it's only there to look back on to see what memories you made and to learn from. The speaker we had today at the breakfast told us to live today greater than yesterday and tomorrow greater than today. I thought it was a good thing to go by.
In all this thinking I have been doing I have realized that words are beautiful and can express so many emotions and thoughts. Yet at the same time words can be hurtful. But most importantly any words are really meaningless with out the actions that show them. So when he wants to act on what he says I will then believe it. I just miss talking to him the most because holding all my feelings in and never sharing anything with anybody doesn't help me any. But I'm slowing trying.
Today I think I'm going to pack some things away in my room. Things I don't want to look at any more. Things that are just memories. I'm trying for some type of change.
And no matter how many times I believe my life is bad it really isn't. There are so many people out there far worse off than I am. One thing I do know is having God in my life is the most amazing thing I could ever ask for. He leads me in the right direction.
Okay I'm done and if you read all of this I'm very surprised.
♥
This new phase I'm entering I want to call my starting over phase. I need it. I'm not exactly sure I'm ready to leave for college and move away from my family and the place I've grown up my whole life. But I know I'm ready to become something of my self. I have dreams and goals I do what to accomplish. And in order to accomplish that I have to start over and move on from things I'm holding on to. The past can't be reborn it's only there to look back on to see what memories you made and to learn from. The speaker we had today at the breakfast told us to live today greater than yesterday and tomorrow greater than today. I thought it was a good thing to go by.
In all this thinking I have been doing I have realized that words are beautiful and can express so many emotions and thoughts. Yet at the same time words can be hurtful. But most importantly any words are really meaningless with out the actions that show them. So when he wants to act on what he says I will then believe it. I just miss talking to him the most because holding all my feelings in and never sharing anything with anybody doesn't help me any. But I'm slowing trying.
Today I think I'm going to pack some things away in my room. Things I don't want to look at any more. Things that are just memories. I'm trying for some type of change.
And no matter how many times I believe my life is bad it really isn't. There are so many people out there far worse off than I am. One thing I do know is having God in my life is the most amazing thing I could ever ask for. He leads me in the right direction.
Okay I'm done and if you read all of this I'm very surprised.
♥