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So how about what I just got I didn't deserve. I just wanted to tell him I had the freaking prom pictures and that I was bringing them tomorrow. Wtf?! I don't even know. And I let that ruin my day because I can't help it because I still care about him. And the fact that my mom told me the biggest reason for my change in the way I was back when me and him started going out till now was due to my migraine medicine. Yes I'm the still the same freaking person he liked. I changed because of side effects to a medicine. Yeah ones that include weight loss, problem I'm dealing with now, mood swings, dissociating myself from others. It just bothers me to know that now and to know that I'm the way I am now from something I can't change becuase I have to take the medicine. And I just know he won't care about that or he won't believe that and there isn't anything I can do about it.

Thanks Becca for being such an amazing friend. I know I don't have to pretend but I think sometimes I have to to feel better. And I know what you mean when you say Matt is a lot of things better but he just isn't him.