i want some halloween skeleton lights to hang in my kitchen underneath the cabinets but over the sink and stove. halloween is the best, even if its cold. it is the best not only because of the blood and guts and kids dressed up like witches and superman and stuff, but because it is our wedding anniversary! that's right, we'll have been married for ( Read more... )

i don't know what to say. i haven't updated in quite sometime. there's something so alienated about spending your time writing about your life instead of living it. i still can't bring myself to delete this thing. i'm still so in love, we sold the house, we still live in chicago, and we still want to jump ship. fuck this city. it's filthy, but not ( Read more... )

i got married on halloween. to the most amazing man on the face of the planet ( Read more... )

i'm in a different place. it's odd. my mind, and everything. i live with shawn now. someone whom i've never mentioned. i finished moving out of my place on the exact anniversary of the day i moved in; the day i moved to chicago. i've now been in this place a year. i'm solid on it's existence, and i'm comfortable with my life. i'm living with ( Read more... )

i'm home sick with the flu today. except, i did my laundry, and have been working on paintings and not resting so much. i'm kind of a jerk. i just spent all weekend in bed and it was quite miserable. i'm not sure if aaron has listened to his tape yet. I'm curious. I don't know, don't know, don't know. that situation is so up in the air it's ( Read more... )

so, things with oliver have finally evened out, for the most part. they were very lopsided and messy for a while. we broke up and got back together once more since the last time i wrote, and then we finally broke up for good. it's for the best. my heart wasn't really in it. i have been pretty much dumbstruck over this guy aaron since the day i met ( Read more... )

yesterday, like an idiot, i hurt myself ( Read more... )

ok, ok, ok ( Read more... )

i don't feel right today. something has me unsettled. but, across the street i see trees in bloom. it finally feels like spring, with the leaves sprouting and the scent of tulips in the air. i just finally switched the electricity out of the former tenants name, and i still feel like a bad person. friday had me depressed as hell, without a simple ( Read more... )

dear love,
do not make me think i might be in you again.
that could be disaster. i don't need you,
and you don't need me. i like this boy too
much to fuck it up with emotional drama.

fuck off.

sincerely,
nicole carr.